i will say that i had a great year, being away for 6 months in the best holiday i've had in my life so far.
i made some really great friends.
i learnt the darkness of the working world.
i realised the fragility of relationships.
i became more of a party animal.
now, as 2011 is drawing to a close, i'm more concerned on finding my direction in life, saving more money for future use. finding the right guy to share my ups and downs with, a guy who i can give up partying for. but xiaopork doesnt believe i can stop drinking and clubbing. haha
time to use the weekend to find a better job.
Friday, December 30, 2011
Saturday, December 24, 2011
offloading rubbish thoughts
男生是不是都喜欢单纯的女生，那对爱情充满憧憬的可爱，那看似娇弱的外表，那些任性的撒娇？
因为那样的单纯，就代表涉世未深，让男生想要拥有及保护？
那，那些伤过痛过，自我防备变得很强，失去了对爱情天真的期盼的女生，会引男生注意吗？难道她们不也同样需要被小心珍惜保护？
是因为我没有把我的时间给你，所以你的目光被别的她吸引了？
突然想知道，当时是怎样的我吸引了你？而现在的我，还会吸引男人的真心吗？i only want to be the only one, despite everything, from the beginning to the end. don't wanna be the one you choose because there's no else around, because of lame reasons other than you loving me.
因为那样的单纯，就代表涉世未深，让男生想要拥有及保护？
那，那些伤过痛过，自我防备变得很强，失去了对爱情天真的期盼的女生，会引男生注意吗？难道她们不也同样需要被小心珍惜保护？
是因为我没有把我的时间给你，所以你的目光被别的她吸引了？
突然想知道，当时是怎样的我吸引了你？而现在的我，还会吸引男人的真心吗？i only want to be the only one, despite everything, from the beginning to the end. don't wanna be the one you choose because there's no else around, because of lame reasons other than you loving me.
Friday, December 23, 2011
jingle ling a ling~
had to resort to using my blog to remember what I was doing this time last year. getting older, some things remain the same, for which i'm thankful for. some has changed, but probably it's fated.
just came back from a 3d2n genting trip with my parents, bro and Gen. not a bad trip, but as usual, it makes me wonder why do i keep going to msia. especially a place where we were trapped with hordes of ah beng teenagers. loved the heart-to-heart talk with gen. loved being pranked by my adorable forever young-at-heart bro. loved the meals we ate as a family too, especially since it seems that we had more meals together in these 3d2n than in the 7 weeks I've been back.
thanks babe, for being the photographer in capturing the moments
busy week ahead, starting with xmas lunch tomorrow in the company.
23/12: the girls (+2) are meeting at wala wala for dinner before ktv at NTUAC
24/12: expected dinner for mum bday is still in discussion, but meeting gen to countdown to xmas together
25/12: to sleep in. hahaha unless someone dates me
26/12: mj + 2b exchange. a turnout of 17 sounds so amazing!
have a merry xmas people!
just came back from a 3d2n genting trip with my parents, bro and Gen. not a bad trip, but as usual, it makes me wonder why do i keep going to msia. especially a place where we were trapped with hordes of ah beng teenagers. loved the heart-to-heart talk with gen. loved being pranked by my adorable forever young-at-heart bro. loved the meals we ate as a family too, especially since it seems that we had more meals together in these 3d2n than in the 7 weeks I've been back.
busy week ahead, starting with xmas lunch tomorrow in the company.
23/12: the girls (+2) are meeting at wala wala for dinner before ktv at NTUAC
24/12: expected dinner for mum bday is still in discussion, but meeting gen to countdown to xmas together
25/12: to sleep in. hahaha unless someone dates me
26/12: mj + 2b exchange. a turnout of 17 sounds so amazing!
have a merry xmas people!
Sunday, December 11, 2011
alamak
came home after celebrating uncle's 60th birthday at granny's house, and got overcame by an urge to clear out my drawers.
and then i found notes. alamak. why do I do cleaning in the middle of the night? hahaha
this one was from secondary school, such a long time ago!
this was a few years back? walao your handwriting was really messy. and somehow my cellphone has a voice note teaching me to say 恭喜发财，万事如意
as recent as May this year, written super neatly. (probably even neater than my writing) not deliberately made blur, but due to lousy camera on mobile phone
一切事过境迁了，终于能会心珍惜拥有过的时光与回忆，无论好坏。能做朋友，算是种缘分。
and then i found notes. alamak. why do I do cleaning in the middle of the night? hahaha
一切事过境迁了，终于能会心珍惜拥有过的时光与回忆，无论好坏。能做朋友，算是种缘分。
Saturday, December 10, 2011
relationships are fragile
一次对话，可以让两个人结下误会，从此便有了一个心结。故此，再亲密的人，说话时都需要保留一点空间，也还是要谨慎。
我并非在你们的两人关系里，所以当然没法知道来龙去脉，其中包括的细节与苦衷。但，我看到的足以让我产生关心，我想我必须告诉你，因为我害怕你当局者迷。请你明白，我要跟你促膝而谈，赌上我们的交情需要多大勇气。有可能，我说的话你不想听，那就算了。我只是想和你分享我担忧的，希望你不会觉得我太多嘴，而从此把我拒于千里之外。如果我太自以为是的看法错了，我一定会道歉。但也请你别急于否认我话中可能隐藏的那些你需要人提点才会发现的事实。不同的人看到的观点，可能还是有点道理。
战战兢兢的，要找对的时机下手。世界上最听不进去的4个字应该是“为了你好”。
我并非在你们的两人关系里，所以当然没法知道来龙去脉，其中包括的细节与苦衷。但，我看到的足以让我产生关心，我想我必须告诉你，因为我害怕你当局者迷。请你明白，我要跟你促膝而谈，赌上我们的交情需要多大勇气。有可能，我说的话你不想听，那就算了。我只是想和你分享我担忧的，希望你不会觉得我太多嘴，而从此把我拒于千里之外。如果我太自以为是的看法错了，我一定会道歉。但也请你别急于否认我话中可能隐藏的那些你需要人提点才会发现的事实。不同的人看到的观点，可能还是有点道理。
战战兢兢的，要找对的时机下手。世界上最听不进去的4个字应该是“为了你好”。
Saturday, December 03, 2011
first week of job 2
mon-wed: computer system was down, and everyone couldn't access their documents. apparently it's the first time such a thing has ever happened.
thurs: the photocopier broke down, creating a short circuit that cut off power
fri: nothing happened, amazingly.
and through all this, I had to orientate myself, deciding which are the things that I wanna read, to know more about the company and how it works. i had the luxury of doing it in an office where i was the sole occupant. so i'm Like A Boss! managers who wanna talk to me have to knock on my door first. -_- although the thought that the colleagues may wonder what's my GM thinking of me kinda scares me, I am a bit too zen-like to care. I can lunch alone, go work & home alone, I can just know them as colleagues and not friends.
no idea why I'm like that suddenly, but I really had no mood to interact/socialise the past days. maybe the situation was made worse by the fact that despite sleeping for 7 hours daily, i'm still abruptly awakened before my alarm rings, and i'm always sleepy. is this the back-to-work inability to re-adjust syndrome?
i shall always try to make an effort to do the simplest things for my family. buying apples for parents, bread for breakfast, stuff the folks request. today, ahma's smile on seeing me made me touched. spending time together is actually not as easy as it sounds.
on a totally unrelated note, at this rate, i'll probably be playing mj at least once every weekend.
would u understand my random musings:
i need a hug in rainy weather, because i dislike getting cold n wet.
i don't wanna hear that song, because it was your song for me, and then it was my song for you, but it wasn't our song, ever.
那一年，我们"离开地球表面"。但明年却没法一起登上"诺亚方舟"
the best way to lead our lives is separately, with no further contact complicating matters.
despite being curious, questions mustn't be asked.
thurs: the photocopier broke down, creating a short circuit that cut off power
fri: nothing happened, amazingly.
and through all this, I had to orientate myself, deciding which are the things that I wanna read, to know more about the company and how it works. i had the luxury of doing it in an office where i was the sole occupant. so i'm Like A Boss! managers who wanna talk to me have to knock on my door first. -_- although the thought that the colleagues may wonder what's my GM thinking of me kinda scares me, I am a bit too zen-like to care. I can lunch alone, go work & home alone, I can just know them as colleagues and not friends.
no idea why I'm like that suddenly, but I really had no mood to interact/socialise the past days. maybe the situation was made worse by the fact that despite sleeping for 7 hours daily, i'm still abruptly awakened before my alarm rings, and i'm always sleepy. is this the back-to-work inability to re-adjust syndrome?
i shall always try to make an effort to do the simplest things for my family. buying apples for parents, bread for breakfast, stuff the folks request. today, ahma's smile on seeing me made me touched. spending time together is actually not as easy as it sounds.
on a totally unrelated note, at this rate, i'll probably be playing mj at least once every weekend.
would u understand my random musings:
i need a hug in rainy weather, because i dislike getting cold n wet.
i don't wanna hear that song, because it was your song for me, and then it was my song for you, but it wasn't our song, ever.
那一年，我们"离开地球表面"。但明年却没法一起登上"诺亚方舟"
the best way to lead our lives is separately, with no further contact complicating matters.
despite being curious, questions mustn't be asked.
Wednesday, November 23, 2011
why am I like that?
I get frustrated when I'm worried about something, and others get even more worried than I am. Especially when it involves me directly, or when it can only be solved through my own actions.
I think that since they can't help, I don't need them to add to my anxiety. So I react by pushing them away, rashly, denying their concern. Why am I like that?!
I think that since they can't help, I don't need them to add to my anxiety. So I react by pushing them away, rashly, denying their concern. Why am I like that?!
Monday, November 21, 2011
cravings
dimsum
korean bbq
oyster omelette, char kuay teow
belgian waffles
japanese food - sushi, ramen, soba, sashimi
steamboat!!!!!!!
who want buy me laoban tao huay?
korean bbq
oyster omelette, char kuay teow
belgian waffles
japanese food - sushi, ramen, soba, sashimi
steamboat!!!!!!!
who want buy me laoban tao huay?
Saturday, November 19, 2011
vested interest
I want them to succeed, because I see their wholehearted effort, because they are my parents who are becoming skinnier in their bid to fulfill their dream.
I will try to help, as 二舅says: 自己的生意，不要怕丢脸。I shall use my actions to support them the best I can.
Would appreciate whatever help and support they can get. It is really amazing how a little encouragement can brighten their day.
I will try to help, as 二舅says: 自己的生意，不要怕丢脸。I shall use my actions to support them the best I can.
Would appreciate whatever help and support they can get. It is really amazing how a little encouragement can brighten their day.
Thursday, November 17, 2011
那些年..
Caught the movie with Gen today, and it's not bad. Kinda made me remember the days when liking someone was innocent and uncomplicated.
can you keep someone secretly locked away in your heart, while you hold another's hand? because having loved before, that special place that the someone occupies can never be replaced. but it doesn't make you love the current partner less. just that there is always regret that the timing was wrong, the people were too immature, all the reasons the relationship never worked out.
matters of the heart are always too complicated
can you keep someone secretly locked away in your heart, while you hold another's hand? because having loved before, that special place that the someone occupies can never be replaced. but it doesn't make you love the current partner less. just that there is always regret that the timing was wrong, the people were too immature, all the reasons the relationship never worked out.
matters of the heart are always too complicated
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
old memories
ever since I've been home, I've been clearing my room and today it was just by random chance that I decided to look into my drawer.
Saw an old note from Evan, back in the days when we were DM&XM, passing notes to each other, writing emails. Saw old notebooks from Maths class. Saw the dark & light purple wrappers I saved from that bouquet you sent to my office.
我们曾经那样天真的开心自在。
Saw an old note from Evan, back in the days when we were DM&XM, passing notes to each other, writing emails. Saw old notebooks from Maths class. Saw the dark & light purple wrappers I saved from that bouquet you sent to my office.
我们曾经那样天真的开心自在。
Monday, November 14, 2011
2nd try
6 months probation starts on 28th nov. This shall help me decide: Was it the job nature that sucks, or it was just the company?
GM has high hopes and expectations for me, a bit de siao eh. i accept the job because my mum is gancheong, because even if i quit after x months, i still have money in the meantime.
omg, 7 months holiday is really ending.
GM has high hopes and expectations for me, a bit de siao eh. i accept the job because my mum is gancheong, because even if i quit after x months, i still have money in the meantime.
omg, 7 months holiday is really ending.
Friday, November 11, 2011
do i have what it takes?
i have lost my mind. i applied for a job position in Canada. hahaha without even knowing what the job may be.
and i'm actually looking at this cos it's damn interesting. http://www.healyconsultants.com/careers/personal-assistant.html
siao eh.
and i'm actually looking at this cos it's damn interesting. http://www.healyconsultants.com/careers/personal-assistant.html
siao eh.
爱你不是两三天
maybe i was weary of having to brave my way through the huge crowd at the MRT station. 还是我被宠坏了？走过夏日街头，还是想牵你的手。
我们分手了，所以没办法从新来过。虽然你还是最懂我的，默契还是最好的。
But being single, I gained a lot too. In a way, I feel so much happier too, instead of quarreling with you, missing you when I can't see you, being sad when we have so little time together.
I love my current independence, but I'm looking forward to meeting the next guy, loving him with all my heart, and daring to trust him with all my life, again.
我们分手了，所以没办法从新来过。虽然你还是最懂我的，默契还是最好的。
But being single, I gained a lot too. In a way, I feel so much happier too, instead of quarreling with you, missing you when I can't see you, being sad when we have so little time together.
I love my current independence, but I'm looking forward to meeting the next guy, loving him with all my heart, and daring to trust him with all my life, again.
Thursday, November 10, 2011
time is a fascinating thing..
I know 6 months is not very long. But looking at the changes around, it is quite unbelievable that it's just 6 months, yet so much is different.
Restaurants can undergo renovation.
Malls can revamp their shop layout.
Hawker centres can be closed.
Weight can fluctuate.
Health can be affected.
Friends can grow apart.
Relationship statuses can change.
Knowing of all these above changes, I have been feeling surprised, worried, disappointed and happy, in no particular order.
But my attitude towards my ex-company is still the same. I will not go back, despite my mum's nagging at keeping my options open. Even if the market is bad, I see no need to subject myself to the agony I know I will definitely go through if I go back.
Restaurants can undergo renovation.
Malls can revamp their shop layout.
Hawker centres can be closed.
Weight can fluctuate.
Health can be affected.
Friends can grow apart.
Relationship statuses can change.
Knowing of all these above changes, I have been feeling surprised, worried, disappointed and happy, in no particular order.
But my attitude towards my ex-company is still the same. I will not go back, despite my mum's nagging at keeping my options open. Even if the market is bad, I see no need to subject myself to the agony I know I will definitely go through if I go back.
finding a job...
out of sheer randomness, I applied for a Process Engineer position at my previous customer's place, and Friday I have an interview. Thing is, I don't know is it a job I want. I don't really know the job description either. Just for the sake of warming up, getting back into the interview circuit.
Some things you don't forget in 6 months, or rather, however long it's given.
Some things you don't forget in 6 months, or rather, however long it's given.
Wednesday, November 09, 2011
home!
回来的感觉真好。可能要离开，才会想念，才会珍惜。for now it feels good to be back, but soon, the urge to travel will gnaw at me again. =p
friends will always be different from family, the people linked by blood. one hug and i dissolve into a pile of tears. haha
you are home for me. this 5 words i saw from the in-flight movie made me cry too. too romantic la!
friends will always be different from family, the people linked by blood. one hug and i dissolve into a pile of tears. haha
you are home for me. this 5 words i saw from the in-flight movie made me cry too. too romantic la!
Sunday, October 30, 2011
i wanna go home!!
just when i'm 10 days away from home, Qantas suspends/cancels its flights, domestic & international, unless it's codeshare. Damn, it's driving me crazy trying to call through to their helpline. I don't care if I don't go Perth from Sydney, I just wanna go home!!!! I can pay the difference just to fly directly back from Sydney to Singapore.
knnwtf, this timing go on strike.
knnwtf, this timing go on strike.
Tuesday, October 25, 2011
shoot!! it's time to leave~
in christchurch now, where the city centre is cordoned off, and our gps keeps running us around in circles. it's sad to see a place devastated.
bought souvenirs, completed all our admin stuff, and packed our luggages. it's time to leave NZ for australia, in less than 24 hours' time. sad to go, but at the same time, happy to be going home.
important: 13.25 flight to sydney on 26 oct
20.50 flight back in singapore 8 nov
i miss my parents and bro most!!!! yay!!
bought souvenirs, completed all our admin stuff, and packed our luggages. it's time to leave NZ for australia, in less than 24 hours' time. sad to go, but at the same time, happy to be going home.
important: 13.25 flight to sydney on 26 oct
20.50 flight back in singapore 8 nov
i miss my parents and bro most!!!! yay!!
Saturday, October 15, 2011
queenstown, not the singapore one
i like being in queenstown. there is a very relaxing peace and happening atmosphere in the vibrant city, all at the same time.
it is city that i can imagine staying for a longer period of time =)
less than 10 days till i leave NZ, I cant believe my 6 months holiday is really coming to an end.
it is city that i can imagine staying for a longer period of time =)
less than 10 days till i leave NZ, I cant believe my 6 months holiday is really coming to an end.
Wednesday, October 12, 2011
south island
so far, in the course of a week or so, we've covered Nelson, where we walked Abel Tasman from Marahau to Anchorage. We also covered Wesport, Greymouth, Arthur's Pass, Franz Josef Glacier, and tomorrow we go to Queenstown. The travelling has been great, even despite the gloomy weather, because we get to see some pretty amazing sights, and soak up the great outdoors =)
looking forward to Sydney with the girls!!!!
p.s. Golden Mile Hawker Centre, #01-86, 13 Oct
looking forward to Sydney with the girls!!!!
p.s. Golden Mile Hawker Centre, #01-86, 13 Oct
Monday, October 03, 2011
the world is constantly changing
she broke up, then she broke up. and now i heard she broke up too. omg.
my parents told me they sold their van because they want to renovate the stall, and they are restarting business at a new location at Golden Mile Hawker Centre on the 13 or 14 of October. my bro told me he is stressed at school, and is demoralised with studying.
haiz, why am i not there?
my parents told me they sold their van because they want to renovate the stall, and they are restarting business at a new location at Golden Mile Hawker Centre on the 13 or 14 of October. my bro told me he is stressed at school, and is demoralised with studying.
haiz, why am i not there?
Friday, September 23, 2011
just had to voice out
random thought stuck in my head: 因为不能给予承诺，所以不放感情。or maybe it's the other way round
I am eager to quit this town and get on the road travelling, towards the direction of home 8,462km away.
I am eager to quit this town and get on the road travelling, towards the direction of home 8,462km away.
Saturday, September 17, 2011
love story
怎样的认识：是同学，同事，朋友的朋友，某个地方遇见的陌生人。。
怎样的开始：是一见钟情，是众多选一。。
怎样的过程：轰轰烈烈，细水长流，吵架，浪漫。。
怎样的结局：做回朋友，变成尴尬的旧情人，结婚。。
每个人的爱情故事都不一样。
我将来再怎么爱他，我也会记得你。我不会跟爱你一样爱他，因为我们的故事只属于你和我，两个人的回忆。
在人生路上能够相遇相爱，是一种缘分。虽然那已不在，虽然难过，虽然不舍得，但让我体验了，领悟了，成长了。
希望我们各自编写更灿烂的爱情故事。
怎样的开始：是一见钟情，是众多选一。。
怎样的过程：轰轰烈烈，细水长流，吵架，浪漫。。
怎样的结局：做回朋友，变成尴尬的旧情人，结婚。。
每个人的爱情故事都不一样。
我将来再怎么爱他，我也会记得你。我不会跟爱你一样爱他，因为我们的故事只属于你和我，两个人的回忆。
在人生路上能够相遇相爱，是一种缘分。虽然那已不在，虽然难过，虽然不舍得，但让我体验了，领悟了，成长了。
希望我们各自编写更灿烂的爱情故事。
Monday, September 12, 2011
I am 25
This year, my 25th birthday falls on Mid-Autumn festival. It's a double celebration, but I am not at home for the reunion. I'm away in another country, away from familiar faces.
But, I am not lonely. I have lots to be thankful for. Despite being out of sight, I know I am not out of mind. With old friends wishing me on Facebook, and new friends having dinner celebrations for me, 我是幸福的。
在国外度过的生日，感觉非常不一样。言语或许无法准确表现我的感动，所以选择拥抱。
多谢你们，认识了你们，我的人生丰富了，精彩了，完整了。
But, I am not lonely. I have lots to be thankful for. Despite being out of sight, I know I am not out of mind. With old friends wishing me on Facebook, and new friends having dinner celebrations for me, 我是幸福的。
在国外度过的生日，感觉非常不一样。言语或许无法准确表现我的感动，所以选择拥抱。
多谢你们，认识了你们，我的人生丰富了，精彩了，完整了。
Tuesday, September 06, 2011
love will always win, always.. always...
quoteworthy! http://wideopenspaces.squarespace.com/wide-open-spaces/hes-not-perfect.html
still searching.. it's out there somewhere! have faith! (disclaimer: above for u, not me. haha)
still searching.. it's out there somewhere! have faith! (disclaimer: above for u, not me. haha)
Friday, September 02, 2011
if i have my own house..
for my living room, (1) comfortable sofa with bright cushions (2) big screen TV (3) gorgeous lighting (4) some easy to maintain but great looking plants
for my kitchen, (1) pullout pantry cabinet (2) Silestone counter top (3) Big big sink (4) convection oven 5) huge fridge
for my bedroom, (1) super duper comfortable king sized bed (2) dark curtains (3) many pillows
definitely must have a spare guest room
for my kitchen, (1) pullout pantry cabinet (2) Silestone counter top (3) Big big sink (4) convection oven 5) huge fridge
for my bedroom, (1) super duper comfortable king sized bed (2) dark curtains (3) many pillows
definitely must have a spare guest room
Thursday, September 01, 2011
planning the way home
We've gotta see the rest of the North Island: Waitomo, Taupo, Napier, Wellington etc.
The South Island: Queenstown, Milford Sound, Christchurch etc
Sydney with the girls on Oct 26!!!!!
After that, the Perth part of the trip is kinda uncertain. TY may not join for this leg of the journey due to her extension of her NZ WHV. YJ may only be in Perth for half the journey, which means I may be alone for part of the traveling. That may have frightened me a while back, but right now, I am actually quite excited if it really comes to that. Travelling alone sounds like fun! I am looking forward to coming home!!!
Don't you forget me, those of you people I hold close! Otherwise you're an ass for subscribing to "out of sight, out of mind"!
a totally unrelated link: http://www.12sharing.com/note/?p=3377
The South Island: Queenstown, Milford Sound, Christchurch etc
Sydney with the girls on Oct 26!!!!!
After that, the Perth part of the trip is kinda uncertain. TY may not join for this leg of the journey due to her extension of her NZ WHV. YJ may only be in Perth for half the journey, which means I may be alone for part of the traveling. That may have frightened me a while back, but right now, I am actually quite excited if it really comes to that. Travelling alone sounds like fun! I am looking forward to coming home!!!
Don't you forget me, those of you people I hold close! Otherwise you're an ass for subscribing to "out of sight, out of mind"!
a totally unrelated link: http://www.12sharing.com/note/?p=3377
Sunday, August 28, 2011
it's sad
the presidential elections were over yesterday, with Tony Tan winning the chance to be on our walls for 6 years.
the fish stall will be closed tomorrow, such a short term. it's upsetting that though it has been such a big part of my family's life all this while, i'm not there. not at the beginning, not even at the end. as my parents toiled and their health suffered from the long hours and stress, i could only give them emotional support from so many miles away.
but we gain experience and precious lessons from this, to grow & mature
the fish stall will be closed tomorrow, such a short term. it's upsetting that though it has been such a big part of my family's life all this while, i'm not there. not at the beginning, not even at the end. as my parents toiled and their health suffered from the long hours and stress, i could only give them emotional support from so many miles away.
but we gain experience and precious lessons from this, to grow & mature
quotes
张小娴：
打从某天起，好像跟你没那么好了，见面少了，电话也少了..
孤单的时候，忍住没找你..
我亲爱的朋友，并不是因为你做了什么，而是我的故事变复杂了，
有些话不知道从何说起，不如不说；有些秘密只能藏在心底，独自承担..
不想对你说谎，更害怕你痛心的责备，于是只好假装忘了你..
其实，你一直在我心里..
三毛：可进可出，若即若离，可爱可怨，可聚而不会散，才是最天长地久的一种好朋友..
打从某天起，好像跟你没那么好了，见面少了，电话也少了..
孤单的时候，忍住没找你..
我亲爱的朋友，并不是因为你做了什么，而是我的故事变复杂了，
有些话不知道从何说起，不如不说；有些秘密只能藏在心底，独自承担..
不想对你说谎，更害怕你痛心的责备，于是只好假装忘了你..
其实，你一直在我心里..
三毛：可进可出，若即若离，可爱可怨，可聚而不会散，才是最天长地久的一种好朋友..
Thursday, August 25, 2011
random
knn 3 day headache. shall take panadol to sleep tonight.
18 days to bday! 2 months to going home!
chips, cake, brownie, icecream. u name the junk, we have it. pui, die 3 fatsos. haha
18 days to bday! 2 months to going home!
chips, cake, brownie, icecream. u name the junk, we have it. pui, die 3 fatsos. haha
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
首先听到的是，你在德国凯旋的消息。为你开心，因为是你喜欢的事情。
然后看到你有女朋友的照片，第一反应是难以置信。一个星期前的事，而我浑然不知。我真的震惊，因为很突然。
坦诚第一感觉是松了一口气。忠言总算没有逆耳。她应该是你说的那另外一个。照片里的你和她看起来很快乐，感觉你们会幸福，所以我为你感到开心。恭喜你找到了属于你的爱情。由衷祝福你们。
但接着，感到的是失望(还是落寞呢？) 原来一切可以变的那么快，毫无预警。真的不会有人一直等待着，真的没什么所谓永远。
幸好我不是那种口是心非的女人。我会从你生活中退出的，因为即便只是普通朋友，但一起拥有过的回忆情感太亲密了，不想在你们之间成为问题。情侣之间是不应该有别人介入的，我明白。希望你知道，不是我要断绝来往，是我祝福你的举动。
从今以后，我将不再不再看得懂你的status, MSN personal message，也无权过问。因为我不再拥有你心里那个特别的位置。
谢谢你，爱过。
然后看到你有女朋友的照片，第一反应是难以置信。一个星期前的事，而我浑然不知。我真的震惊，因为很突然。
坦诚第一感觉是松了一口气。忠言总算没有逆耳。她应该是你说的那另外一个。照片里的你和她看起来很快乐，感觉你们会幸福，所以我为你感到开心。恭喜你找到了属于你的爱情。由衷祝福你们。
但接着，感到的是失望(还是落寞呢？) 原来一切可以变的那么快，毫无预警。真的不会有人一直等待着，真的没什么所谓永远。
幸好我不是那种口是心非的女人。我会从你生活中退出的，因为即便只是普通朋友，但一起拥有过的回忆情感太亲密了，不想在你们之间成为问题。情侣之间是不应该有别人介入的，我明白。希望你知道，不是我要断绝来往，是我祝福你的举动。
从今以后，我将不再不再看得懂你的status, MSN personal message，也无权过问。因为我不再拥有你心里那个特别的位置。
谢谢你，爱过。
hey you
I only got to know now, kinda late. Only got to know through indirect means, but I guess it’s weird to announce too. So through this indirect mean, double congratulations for the good news =) Be happy! Cos I am happy for you..
Sunday, August 21, 2011
realisation
this morning, sitting on the toilet bowl in the cold of the morning, i realised there is no need to have a guy in my life. what reasons are there for a guy? there is nothing he can offer me that I don't already have, or is incapable of providing myself.
very extreme thinking hor? LOL
very extreme thinking hor? LOL
Wednesday, August 17, 2011
the big picture
elsewhere in Somalia
http://www.boston.com/bigpicture/2011/08/the_horn_of_africa_dadaab_refu.html
will i ever participate in a protest somewhere, for a cause I really support and believe in, help to change the world in some small way?
http://www.boston.com/bigpicture/2011/08/the_horn_of_africa_dadaab_refu.html
will i ever participate in a protest somewhere, for a cause I really support and believe in, help to change the world in some small way?
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
Sunday, August 14, 2011
day 100
2 weeks ago, i missed the food > family > friends
this week, its family > friends > food
day off with brunch, icecream, grocery shopping and watching two tv movies is awesome. tomorrow-day 100, we are just going to celebrate with a brownie and baked rice =)
and i wonder if i've ever crossed your mind...
this week, its family > friends > food
day off with brunch, icecream, grocery shopping and watching two tv movies is awesome. tomorrow-day 100, we are just going to celebrate with a brownie and baked rice =)
and i wonder if i've ever crossed your mind...
Tuesday, August 09, 2011
46th National Day
Happy National Day, Singapore!!! Day 10 of consecutive work as minimum wage slaves. Finally we get a day off tomorrow! yay!
Managed to Skype home today, and saw all 3 of my dear family, so I'm super happy! Bad news to hear that 2nd Uncle is in hospital due to an infection. And to see my dad's face makes me wanna cry. He really lost a lot of weight, to the point that his cheeks are sunken and his eyebags are more obvious than before. Really feel so bad that I'm not there while they go through so much.
真的想家了.
Managed to Skype home today, and saw all 3 of my dear family, so I'm super happy! Bad news to hear that 2nd Uncle is in hospital due to an infection. And to see my dad's face makes me wanna cry. He really lost a lot of weight, to the point that his cheeks are sunken and his eyebags are more obvious than before. Really feel so bad that I'm not there while they go through so much.
真的想家了.
Friday, August 05, 2011
day 90
loads of things i miss. but lots of things i am enjoying now too.
we have reverted to being very simple people. happy with seeing the sunrise, the sunset, the sunshine. having warm fingers n toes, clean clothes, hot food. a piece of sweet or a hyper song during work makes us smile.
learnt to be in sync and compromise with each other's habits. its not a bad thing, but it takes tolerance and time to change.
shall continue to enjoy my short-lived days of being carefree!
do u miss me???
we have reverted to being very simple people. happy with seeing the sunrise, the sunset, the sunshine. having warm fingers n toes, clean clothes, hot food. a piece of sweet or a hyper song during work makes us smile.
learnt to be in sync and compromise with each other's habits. its not a bad thing, but it takes tolerance and time to change.
shall continue to enjoy my short-lived days of being carefree!
do u miss me???
Monday, August 01, 2011
8 days every week....
Sun- Tues: 8am - 830pm.
Wed- Sun: 7am - 5pm
I'm whining, when my mum says she is working 17 hours, and sleeping 6 hours. I should shut up.
I really really like reading the emails that land in my inbox after a hard day's work. Makes me feel closer to home and all the people. Makes me smile, and makes me miss them. Especially when the emails are packed with more details than just MSN/ Facebook
Wed- Sun: 7am - 5pm
I'm whining, when my mum says she is working 17 hours, and sleeping 6 hours. I should shut up.
I really really like reading the emails that land in my inbox after a hard day's work. Makes me feel closer to home and all the people. Makes me smile, and makes me miss them. Especially when the emails are packed with more details than just MSN/ Facebook
Thursday, July 28, 2011
平凡也是一种幸福
“ 我们结束吧！不是说我不爱你了，只是我们将各奔东西，去我们都不熟悉的世界，那里没有你，也没有我！我不想用一句承诺，来缠住你一辈子，如果我们有缘的话，我相信当我们大学毕业的时候，我们还会在一起的！不要哭，我们应该勇敢地去面对，毕竟在将来的路上还有很多比这更让我们无法接受的事情！明天我将不在你身边，你要照顾好自己，不要让我担心，记得要快乐啊！因为只有你快乐，我才会快乐..！”
元钧 一口口吸着烟，对我说了这些话。因为夜很黑，我看不清他的表情，但借着微弱的月光，我看见了一颗晶莹剔透的东西从他那消瘦的脸庞滑落，所以我知道他是爱我的，所以我会快乐的去面对即将到来的大学生活。因为只有我快乐，他才会快乐啊..！
忘了哪位哲人曾说过这样的话 : “ 距离产生美，不过要小心，距离有了，美却没了..”
也许正应验了这位哲人的话..
在半年后，元钧又恋爱了，那个女生似乎比我优秀了很多。于是我陷入了深深的自卑与怀疑中。我开始怀疑他对我说的每一句话，我不知道他们哪句是真的，哪句是假的；我开始怀疑自己，难道我真的有那么差劲吗？我失去了往日挂在脸上自信的笑容，失去了对爱情的憧憬与信心，一味低迷的我失去了人生的方向..
直到我遇见了他，叶枫..
他每天变着法的逗我开心，给我讲笑话，给我唱歌，给我送花，陪我一起吃饭。让我慢慢的脱离那种一个人的孤独感，但是内心深处我告诉自己，即使他可以给我他的全部，但我也不可以爱上他，因为从元钧那里让我明白男人都一样，爱你的时候，你缺点都变成了优点，但当他一旦不爱你了，你的优点都变成了缺点，他连多看你一眼都觉得是浪费时间。就这样我不再相信爱情，不再相信男人，一个人漫无目的活着..
就这样过了若干年，虽然我清清楚楚地知道枫一直都很爱我，一直默默地陪在我身边照顾我，保护我，疼惜我..
但是我总是假装不知道，因为不知道他对我的爱，究竟能维持多久，我不知道我还有没有权利去享受爱情的甜蜜与幸福。面对枫为我所作的一切，我总是莞尔一笑，然后告诉他不要在我身上浪费时间了，他应该找到一个比我好很多的女人，我并不适合他，他应该拥有一个他爱的，同时很爱他的女人，与他幸福的过一辈子，而那个女人不会是我..
每每当我对他说这些的时候，他总是笑着对我说 :
“我的幸福只有你能给，别的女人给不了！”。
我知道我们都中了同一种毒，掉进了一个人的世界都走不出来了，只是他中的毒比我深，默默的爱我这么些年，但是他是幸福的，因为他没有遇到那个能让他对爱情丧失信心的人，所以他总是微笑着向往着未来，想象着我和他在一起生活的美好画面，对爱情充满了憧憬..
从那以后我不再说什么，无论他为我做什么，我都会表现得很开心，因为我明白，
“当一个爱你的人，看到你为他所做的事而感到开心的时候，他就会很幸福…”
枫，有这种幸福，而我却没有这种权利，当我想为元钧作些什么的时候，
他总是会对我说 :
“ 求你了，云，不要这样好吗？我们已经结束了，我现在爱的是蓝蓝，不要让我为难好吗！” 就这样我不再联系他了..
我知道他已经不爱我了，一点都不爱了..
我所能做的只是远远的看着他们幸福的表情，暗自伤神流泪..
突然有一天，元钧跑来找我，当时我的心情有些复杂，这是分手以后他第一次主动来找我，
我问他 ：
“有什么事吗？我们不是已经分手了吗？我想我们之间应该不会有交集了吧！”
他支吾了半天也没说出话来，我有些不耐烦地说 :
“再不说，我可要走了，不好意思，我可没时间陪您在这里闲坐着！”。
他说 :
“云，我知道当初是我不对，我不应该离开你，可是你知道吗？当时我在那里一个人真的很寂寞，就在这时，蓝蓝走进了我的世界，我就这样爱上了她，不管当初我是为了摆脱一个人的孤寂，还是因为我爱她，但我现在真得很爱她，我真的好想娶她，和她一起生活！可是她说只要你一天没有归宿，她就一天没有安全感，害怕失去我，虽然我跟他说，我和你已经是过去式了，我现在只爱她一个人，可她总觉得你是个威胁，求你了，找个好人就嫁了吧！我不值得你等啊！而且我真的不爱你了！我知道这样做对你不公平，但我真的没有其他办法了，你找个好人就嫁了吧，只有你嫁出了，我和蓝蓝才会结婚。”
泪水不知不觉从我的眼角流出.. 我沙哑着嗓子对他说 :
“ 元钧，我现在真的把你看扁了，我真的搞不明白自己当初为什么会那么喜欢你这种男人，我告诉你，我过得怎样用不着您老人家操心，但我相信我一定会过得比你好，至少我还有一个真真实实爱我的人，不像你，一条摇尾乞怜的狗！”
当时的我真的好伤心，你可以不爱我，但不应该伤害我的自尊！
就在我最无助的时候，枫出现了，他一把拉起我，抱紧我，然后对元钧大吼〜
“你还是个男人嘛！连女人都欺负。云的幸福由我负责，你不要再来骚扰她，她已经被你伤的遍体鳞伤了，你还想怎么地啊！以后你给我离云远远的，不许你再来伤害她！”
就这样枫把我抱出了咖啡屋！
虽然这时的我已经哭得稀里哗啦，可还是隐隐约约听见了背后元钧恳求声 “求你了，云”！
我想，这个男人真的不值得我爱了.. 我们真的该结束了..
这时我抱着枫，就像抓住了一根救命的稻草，把我从痛苦的边缘拉回来..
突然，好想有个家，有一个真的爱我的男人在那个家里，等我吃饭，等我回家..
叶枫给了元钧从未给过我的安全感..
我知道在不知不觉中，已经有个男人闯进了我的世界.. 同时又走进了我的心..
而那个人就是枫.. 我知道我已经离不开他了！
可是我不知道，我还有没有拥有幸福的权力，还能不能拥有爱情的甜蜜。
走出咖啡屋，趴在枫的肩头，我轻声地说了声 “娶我好吗？枫”..
我感觉到了枫的心停止了跳动，紧接着传来兴奋的声音，
枫抱着我在路上转圈，大声地说，
“ 哈哈哈，我是这个世界上最幸福的男人，我娶到了这个世界上最好的女人，可以和你一起生活是我这辈子最大的幸福了，以后你的幸福就由我来负责了，我不会再要你哭泣，无论为谁！我都不允许你再伤心！”
一个月后，我和枫举行了婚礼，我感觉自己是这个世界最幸福的女人了，
遇见了像枫这样的好男人这样爱我，不给我伤心的机会，
我会尽我最大的努力，让枫幸福！因为我发现我已经深深地爱上他了！
我知道现在的我真得很幸福，而且终于明白，原来我一直都很爱枫..
他的爱是简单的，但很真实，能让我实实在在的感受到..
让我在不知不觉中无可救药地爱上他..
其实我想要的就是那种简简单单的幸福，其实我一直都很在乎他.. 枫..
不要为了一个不爱你的人去浪费你的时间与心情，珍惜身边那个值得珍惜的人..
那个你开心陪你开心，你不开心哄你开心的，别人欺负你时第一个站出来挺你的..
那个不让你受一点委屈的人，当你不小心丢了心情时，为你指明生活方向的人，
无论怎样都一直在你身边的那个人..
因为当你失去他的时候，
你才会发现其实你一直都很在乎他，不要等到那个爱你的人冷了心的时候，
才发现你爱的是他，在乎的是他！
元钧 一口口吸着烟，对我说了这些话。因为夜很黑，我看不清他的表情，但借着微弱的月光，我看见了一颗晶莹剔透的东西从他那消瘦的脸庞滑落，所以我知道他是爱我的，所以我会快乐的去面对即将到来的大学生活。因为只有我快乐，他才会快乐啊..！
忘了哪位哲人曾说过这样的话 : “ 距离产生美，不过要小心，距离有了，美却没了..”
也许正应验了这位哲人的话..
在半年后，元钧又恋爱了，那个女生似乎比我优秀了很多。于是我陷入了深深的自卑与怀疑中。我开始怀疑他对我说的每一句话，我不知道他们哪句是真的，哪句是假的；我开始怀疑自己，难道我真的有那么差劲吗？我失去了往日挂在脸上自信的笑容，失去了对爱情的憧憬与信心，一味低迷的我失去了人生的方向..
直到我遇见了他，叶枫..
他每天变着法的逗我开心，给我讲笑话，给我唱歌，给我送花，陪我一起吃饭。让我慢慢的脱离那种一个人的孤独感，但是内心深处我告诉自己，即使他可以给我他的全部，但我也不可以爱上他，因为从元钧那里让我明白男人都一样，爱你的时候，你缺点都变成了优点，但当他一旦不爱你了，你的优点都变成了缺点，他连多看你一眼都觉得是浪费时间。就这样我不再相信爱情，不再相信男人，一个人漫无目的活着..
就这样过了若干年，虽然我清清楚楚地知道枫一直都很爱我，一直默默地陪在我身边照顾我，保护我，疼惜我..
但是我总是假装不知道，因为不知道他对我的爱，究竟能维持多久，我不知道我还有没有权利去享受爱情的甜蜜与幸福。面对枫为我所作的一切，我总是莞尔一笑，然后告诉他不要在我身上浪费时间了，他应该找到一个比我好很多的女人，我并不适合他，他应该拥有一个他爱的，同时很爱他的女人，与他幸福的过一辈子，而那个女人不会是我..
每每当我对他说这些的时候，他总是笑着对我说 :
“我的幸福只有你能给，别的女人给不了！”。
我知道我们都中了同一种毒，掉进了一个人的世界都走不出来了，只是他中的毒比我深，默默的爱我这么些年，但是他是幸福的，因为他没有遇到那个能让他对爱情丧失信心的人，所以他总是微笑着向往着未来，想象着我和他在一起生活的美好画面，对爱情充满了憧憬..
从那以后我不再说什么，无论他为我做什么，我都会表现得很开心，因为我明白，
“当一个爱你的人，看到你为他所做的事而感到开心的时候，他就会很幸福…”
枫，有这种幸福，而我却没有这种权利，当我想为元钧作些什么的时候，
他总是会对我说 :
“ 求你了，云，不要这样好吗？我们已经结束了，我现在爱的是蓝蓝，不要让我为难好吗！” 就这样我不再联系他了..
我知道他已经不爱我了，一点都不爱了..
我所能做的只是远远的看着他们幸福的表情，暗自伤神流泪..
突然有一天，元钧跑来找我，当时我的心情有些复杂，这是分手以后他第一次主动来找我，
我问他 ：
“有什么事吗？我们不是已经分手了吗？我想我们之间应该不会有交集了吧！”
他支吾了半天也没说出话来，我有些不耐烦地说 :
“再不说，我可要走了，不好意思，我可没时间陪您在这里闲坐着！”。
他说 :
“云，我知道当初是我不对，我不应该离开你，可是你知道吗？当时我在那里一个人真的很寂寞，就在这时，蓝蓝走进了我的世界，我就这样爱上了她，不管当初我是为了摆脱一个人的孤寂，还是因为我爱她，但我现在真得很爱她，我真的好想娶她，和她一起生活！可是她说只要你一天没有归宿，她就一天没有安全感，害怕失去我，虽然我跟他说，我和你已经是过去式了，我现在只爱她一个人，可她总觉得你是个威胁，求你了，找个好人就嫁了吧！我不值得你等啊！而且我真的不爱你了！我知道这样做对你不公平，但我真的没有其他办法了，你找个好人就嫁了吧，只有你嫁出了，我和蓝蓝才会结婚。”
泪水不知不觉从我的眼角流出.. 我沙哑着嗓子对他说 :
“ 元钧，我现在真的把你看扁了，我真的搞不明白自己当初为什么会那么喜欢你这种男人，我告诉你，我过得怎样用不着您老人家操心，但我相信我一定会过得比你好，至少我还有一个真真实实爱我的人，不像你，一条摇尾乞怜的狗！”
当时的我真的好伤心，你可以不爱我，但不应该伤害我的自尊！
就在我最无助的时候，枫出现了，他一把拉起我，抱紧我，然后对元钧大吼〜
“你还是个男人嘛！连女人都欺负。云的幸福由我负责，你不要再来骚扰她，她已经被你伤的遍体鳞伤了，你还想怎么地啊！以后你给我离云远远的，不许你再来伤害她！”
就这样枫把我抱出了咖啡屋！
虽然这时的我已经哭得稀里哗啦，可还是隐隐约约听见了背后元钧恳求声 “求你了，云”！
我想，这个男人真的不值得我爱了.. 我们真的该结束了..
这时我抱着枫，就像抓住了一根救命的稻草，把我从痛苦的边缘拉回来..
突然，好想有个家，有一个真的爱我的男人在那个家里，等我吃饭，等我回家..
叶枫给了元钧从未给过我的安全感..
我知道在不知不觉中，已经有个男人闯进了我的世界.. 同时又走进了我的心..
而那个人就是枫.. 我知道我已经离不开他了！
可是我不知道，我还有没有拥有幸福的权力，还能不能拥有爱情的甜蜜。
走出咖啡屋，趴在枫的肩头，我轻声地说了声 “娶我好吗？枫”..
我感觉到了枫的心停止了跳动，紧接着传来兴奋的声音，
枫抱着我在路上转圈，大声地说，
“ 哈哈哈，我是这个世界上最幸福的男人，我娶到了这个世界上最好的女人，可以和你一起生活是我这辈子最大的幸福了，以后你的幸福就由我来负责了，我不会再要你哭泣，无论为谁！我都不允许你再伤心！”
一个月后，我和枫举行了婚礼，我感觉自己是这个世界最幸福的女人了，
遇见了像枫这样的好男人这样爱我，不给我伤心的机会，
我会尽我最大的努力，让枫幸福！因为我发现我已经深深地爱上他了！
我知道现在的我真得很幸福，而且终于明白，原来我一直都很爱枫..
他的爱是简单的，但很真实，能让我实实在在的感受到..
让我在不知不觉中无可救药地爱上他..
其实我想要的就是那种简简单单的幸福，其实我一直都很在乎他.. 枫..
不要为了一个不爱你的人去浪费你的时间与心情，珍惜身边那个值得珍惜的人..
那个你开心陪你开心，你不开心哄你开心的，别人欺负你时第一个站出来挺你的..
那个不让你受一点委屈的人，当你不小心丢了心情时，为你指明生活方向的人，
无论怎样都一直在你身边的那个人..
因为当你失去他的时候，
你才会发现其实你一直都很在乎他，不要等到那个爱你的人冷了心的时候，
才发现你爱的是他，在乎的是他！
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
discovering new things every day
Day 81: getting off work at 630pm is a happy thing. when the alternative is 830pm or 1030pm.
Happiness is eating microwave instant pasta, and then a bag of chips, while watching My Big Fat Greek Wedding.
Sitting on the sofa watching lame advertisements and rotting is bliss, after 5 days of physical work, with no off day in sight.
Happiness is eating microwave instant pasta, and then a bag of chips, while watching My Big Fat Greek Wedding.
Sitting on the sofa watching lame advertisements and rotting is bliss, after 5 days of physical work, with no off day in sight.
Sunday, July 24, 2011
CA packing
the work is so boring Yj n I are running out of things to talk about. And the only happening event was that the graders got scolded for 10 mins, about soft fruit.
Smoko was at 4pm, so bloody late. Most played song of the day was Adele - Someone like you
Today we are working till 8.30pm, and its a Sunday.
Parents went Genting last night, good that they are taking a breather.
Smoko was at 4pm, so bloody late. Most played song of the day was Adele - Someone like you
Today we are working till 8.30pm, and its a Sunday.
Parents went Genting last night, good that they are taking a breather.
Thursday, July 21, 2011
kiwi fruit packing
stand by the conveyor and work like a human machine. squeeze the fruit with the palm, and not with the fingers or thumb. reject any soft ones, and throw away any fruit with black marks caused by juice. replace the reject fruit with one from the 'donor' box. dump it all into a box or arrange in the appropriate tray.
it may sound easy, after all its just using the hands. but we have to stand for long hours too, and move the boxes repeatedly. we are however, happy that there's work. moreover, its truly a New Zealand experience.
more you can read here:
http://www.associatedcontent.com/article/910163/the_history_of_kiwi_fruit_how_they.html?cat=5
it may sound easy, after all its just using the hands. but we have to stand for long hours too, and move the boxes repeatedly. we are however, happy that there's work. moreover, its truly a New Zealand experience.
more you can read here:
http://www.associatedcontent.com/article/910163/the_history_of_kiwi_fruit_how_they.html?cat=5
Monday, July 18, 2011
boredom
the boredom of being unemployed is zapping my energy. why am i not in my own house rotting n sleeping n doing whatever i like n irritating my bro?
roar. madness.
oh YJ cut my hair short. now my face is round, as if it isnt already.
update: 14hours of work tomorrow. what a stunt pulled by the packhouse.
roar. madness.
oh YJ cut my hair short. now my face is round, as if it isnt already.
update: 14hours of work tomorrow. what a stunt pulled by the packhouse.
Friday, July 15, 2011
things left unsaid
just like heaven.
when i passed driving.
the moment of zidane's head butt.
金碧辉煌venetian.
cycling in basement carpark.
the times that cannot be replicated
when i passed driving.
the moment of zidane's head butt.
金碧辉煌venetian.
cycling in basement carpark.
the times that cannot be replicated
2006年。香港。
no matter how far the distance, how many new people i meet, and how much time has gone by, the pain still resonates
it's unfair that your name was sprung on me in the midst of the movie.
they say time will help to forget. but it's not true. even with the effort expounded in not remembering, the memories are dredged up unknowingly, abruptly. cuddy saying goodbye to house, touching his face and looking into his eyes for the last time. it is still very much capable of bringing up tears.
and that is why it is selfish of me to have him wait, because even i myself do not dare set a timeline for all this to end, and for me to be able to start loving and trusting again. i choose flings and short casual relationships now, because having to care and then having to hurt again is agony i don't want to go through. less complications, less commitment, less heartache.
it's unfair that your name was sprung on me in the midst of the movie.
they say time will help to forget. but it's not true. even with the effort expounded in not remembering, the memories are dredged up unknowingly, abruptly. cuddy saying goodbye to house, touching his face and looking into his eyes for the last time. it is still very much capable of bringing up tears.
and that is why it is selfish of me to have him wait, because even i myself do not dare set a timeline for all this to end, and for me to be able to start loving and trusting again. i choose flings and short casual relationships now, because having to care and then having to hurt again is agony i don't want to go through. less complications, less commitment, less heartache.
Sunday, July 10, 2011
new home stay
i like our new home stay! down a long winding road, surrounded by orchards everywhere the eye can see. our own toilet and shower, heater, kettle, TV, sofa.
the owners (an italian lady, a kiwi guy & their daughter) give us so much space. it's nice not to have someone watching our every step and breathe down our necks. they have a very hyperactive dog which alternates between being hungry and horny. and a black chubby cat that watches you out of weird yellow eyes.
ting n i have to sleep together cos its a double + single bed. but we have two blankets so we should be fine.
oh! my luggage lock is spoilt. and my luggage was too heavy, it bruised my toes!
let's just hope we find stable work soon! money's running low!!
the owners (an italian lady, a kiwi guy & their daughter) give us so much space. it's nice not to have someone watching our every step and breathe down our necks. they have a very hyperactive dog which alternates between being hungry and horny. and a black chubby cat that watches you out of weird yellow eyes.
ting n i have to sleep together cos its a double + single bed. but we have two blankets so we should be fine.
oh! my luggage lock is spoilt. and my luggage was too heavy, it bruised my toes!
let's just hope we find stable work soon! money's running low!!
明年你还爱我吗..？♥
on facebook, there is a link that keeps sharing stories about love.
之前辛晓琪在演唱会上，再次唱响那首“领悟”时，哭的如此伤心，痛彻心扉。
辛晓琪最终也没有和爱的人在一起，想必是真的领悟了..
我们，一直都是在输给时间。
所以说，这年头，还有什麼能让我们动心，让我们相信呢？
去年我们曾牵手走过很多地方，在车站拥抱，一起看电影，往彼此的嘴巴里塞零食和饮料，一起幻想明年的这个时候，甚至是很多很多年以后，我们在干嘛，要干嘛。
可是感情的脆弱我们谁也想不到，
这一秒幸福，下一秒就可以崩溃..
恋情，崩盘起来，往往太措手不及..
再多的甜言蜜语，累积起来也敌不过分手两个字。
世界上有太多的悲哀。
曾经多麼骄傲的要一起幸福一辈子，到头来却剩下自己。
不想再奢望什麼了，一个人静静的躲在角落裡，欣赏你们的幸福。
夜的黑暗与我做伴，躲在被窝裡，真的体会到了思念的痛，痛却不能说..
其实自己不是那麼矫情的，其实难过不想告诉任何人的..
渐渐发现，痛，就自己忍著。
即使说，也无从说起..
只想问，你能爱我多久..
相恋多年的人们就这样形同陌路，彼此生活。
或许，他们并不是不爱对方了，而是不能给对方各自要的生活。
应该相信，他们或许依然爱著对方..
只是，一个不懂得怎麼去爱，一个相爱却无能为力..
生活就是这样，最终相守到老的人，也许并不是那个曾经许下山盟海誓，承诺白头偕老，暗自发誓这辈子只爱她一个的人。
终究，终究时间会带走一切..
到底是什麼让我们鬆开了彼此的手？
到底是什麼让我们放弃了自己，放弃了对方？
会一直说真的没什麼，然后又对著别人的故事沉默。
表面终究会归於平静，只是内心的波涛汹涌却不为人知。
只有自己才知道，谁是自己真正爱的那个人，谁又是伤了自己的那个人。
所以最后的最后，当我们都有了彼此的归属，你只能是我记忆中模糊地剪影而已。
一个女人突然决绝的跟相爱五年的男友分了手，闪电般嫁了他人。
她说她要结婚，她实在等不起了，而他虽然爱她，却根本没有一点这方面的意思..
过了几年，男人也结婚了..
那个新娘其实未必比她出色多少，或者这一次他的爱有多麼深，只不过她出现的时机实在太好了，刚刚好在他萌生倦意想安定下来的时候。
於是，不需要什麼更好的理由了，她来得正是时候，那麼，就是她了..
其实我们寻寻觅觅了那麼久，遍嚐每一次爱情的甜蜜与艰辛，而最后选择的爱人，不过就是在我们心意动时，经过身边的那一个。
什麼青梅竹马，什麼心有灵犀，什麼一见钟情，都不过是些锦上添花的藉口，
时间才是冥冥中一切的主宰..
回首往事的时候，想起那些如流星般划过生命的爱情，我们常常会把彼此的错过归咎为缘分..
其实说到底，缘分是那麼虚幻抽象的一个概念，
真正影响我们的，往往就是那一时三刻相遇与相爱的时机..
男女之间的交往，充满了犹疑忐忑的不确定与欲言又止的矜持，一个小小的变数，就可以完全改变选择的方向。
如果你出现的早一点，也许她就不会和另一个人十指紧扣;
又或者相遇的再晚一点，晚到两个人在各自的爱情经歷中慢慢学会了包容和体谅，善待和妥协。
在你最美丽的时候，你遇见了谁？
在你深爱一个人的时候，她又陪在谁身边？
在你心灵最脆弱的时候，又是谁在与她同行?
爱情到底给了你多少时间，去相遇和分离，去选择和后悔？
重温 “大话西游” 看到紫霞深爱至尊宝的时候，他心心念念的寻找他的白晶晶，而当他终於看到了她留在心裡的那一滴泪，却已经失去了选择的权利..
每一次看到他潜入另一个人的身体，去偿还前世欠她的一句承诺，再看他在夕阳下孤独的走远，总是情不自禁的想要落泪..
不是不心动，不是不后悔，但已经没有时间，再去相拥了..
如果爱一个人而无法在一起，相爱却无法在适当的时间相遇，
如果你爱了，却爱不对时间，除了珍藏那一滴心底的泪，无言的走远，你又能有什麼选择？
时间的荒野，没有早一步也没有晚一步，
於千万人之中，去邂逅自己的爱人，那是太难得的缘分，
更多的时候，我们只是在彼此不断的错过，错过了杨花飘飞的春，又错过了枫叶瑟索的秋，
直到漫天白雪，年华不再，
在一次次的心酸感嘆之后，才能终於了解..
即使真挚，即使亲密，即使两个人都已是心有戚戚，我们的爱，依然需要时间来成全和考验。
这世界有著太多这样那样的限制与隐秘的禁忌，又有太多难以预测的变故和身不由己的离离合合，一个转身，也许就已经一辈子错过..
多年以后，才会参透所有的争取和努力，都抵不过命运开的一个玩笑。
上帝在云端只眨了一眨眼，所有的结局，就都已经完全改变..
20岁的时候爱上他的帅气，
22岁离开他因为他的孩子气..
然后你遇到了30岁的人，
没有阳光帅气的外表，却拥有成熟和稳重让你安心的一切。
你怎样任性耍赖30岁的他都会让着你，
你怎样挥霍发泄30岁的他都会罩着你。
你眼中的30岁是他长大的模样，30岁眼中的你是他年轻时的她。
30岁的他曾经像22岁的他一样孩子气，然后她离开了..
30岁的他曾经也拥有一个22岁的女孩，事情总是这样循环往复..
十年后当这个22岁男孩蜕变成一个30岁男人，
他要感谢你，你的离开让他学会了成熟。
多少年没见了，我却还是会记得你，多少年过去了，你却依然在我的心裡..
我们为自己设了个圈，自己绕阿绕的，总也出不了这个圈圈..
在大家都不看好的时候 坚强的在一起..
在大家都祝福的时候却 分开了..
就算今年结婚了..
明年也未必再相爱了..
明年你还爱我吗..？♥
such a long post. so emo. to have loved n lost is a pain that will always lurk beneath the surface, even though time will fade it to be more bearable.
之前辛晓琪在演唱会上，再次唱响那首“领悟”时，哭的如此伤心，痛彻心扉。
辛晓琪最终也没有和爱的人在一起，想必是真的领悟了..
我们，一直都是在输给时间。
所以说，这年头，还有什麼能让我们动心，让我们相信呢？
去年我们曾牵手走过很多地方，在车站拥抱，一起看电影，往彼此的嘴巴里塞零食和饮料，一起幻想明年的这个时候，甚至是很多很多年以后，我们在干嘛，要干嘛。
可是感情的脆弱我们谁也想不到，
这一秒幸福，下一秒就可以崩溃..
恋情，崩盘起来，往往太措手不及..
再多的甜言蜜语，累积起来也敌不过分手两个字。
世界上有太多的悲哀。
曾经多麼骄傲的要一起幸福一辈子，到头来却剩下自己。
不想再奢望什麼了，一个人静静的躲在角落裡，欣赏你们的幸福。
夜的黑暗与我做伴，躲在被窝裡，真的体会到了思念的痛，痛却不能说..
其实自己不是那麼矫情的，其实难过不想告诉任何人的..
渐渐发现，痛，就自己忍著。
即使说，也无从说起..
只想问，你能爱我多久..
相恋多年的人们就这样形同陌路，彼此生活。
或许，他们并不是不爱对方了，而是不能给对方各自要的生活。
应该相信，他们或许依然爱著对方..
只是，一个不懂得怎麼去爱，一个相爱却无能为力..
生活就是这样，最终相守到老的人，也许并不是那个曾经许下山盟海誓，承诺白头偕老，暗自发誓这辈子只爱她一个的人。
终究，终究时间会带走一切..
到底是什麼让我们鬆开了彼此的手？
到底是什麼让我们放弃了自己，放弃了对方？
会一直说真的没什麼，然后又对著别人的故事沉默。
表面终究会归於平静，只是内心的波涛汹涌却不为人知。
只有自己才知道，谁是自己真正爱的那个人，谁又是伤了自己的那个人。
所以最后的最后，当我们都有了彼此的归属，你只能是我记忆中模糊地剪影而已。
一个女人突然决绝的跟相爱五年的男友分了手，闪电般嫁了他人。
她说她要结婚，她实在等不起了，而他虽然爱她，却根本没有一点这方面的意思..
过了几年，男人也结婚了..
那个新娘其实未必比她出色多少，或者这一次他的爱有多麼深，只不过她出现的时机实在太好了，刚刚好在他萌生倦意想安定下来的时候。
於是，不需要什麼更好的理由了，她来得正是时候，那麼，就是她了..
其实我们寻寻觅觅了那麼久，遍嚐每一次爱情的甜蜜与艰辛，而最后选择的爱人，不过就是在我们心意动时，经过身边的那一个。
什麼青梅竹马，什麼心有灵犀，什麼一见钟情，都不过是些锦上添花的藉口，
时间才是冥冥中一切的主宰..
回首往事的时候，想起那些如流星般划过生命的爱情，我们常常会把彼此的错过归咎为缘分..
其实说到底，缘分是那麼虚幻抽象的一个概念，
真正影响我们的，往往就是那一时三刻相遇与相爱的时机..
男女之间的交往，充满了犹疑忐忑的不确定与欲言又止的矜持，一个小小的变数，就可以完全改变选择的方向。
如果你出现的早一点，也许她就不会和另一个人十指紧扣;
又或者相遇的再晚一点，晚到两个人在各自的爱情经歷中慢慢学会了包容和体谅，善待和妥协。
在你最美丽的时候，你遇见了谁？
在你深爱一个人的时候，她又陪在谁身边？
在你心灵最脆弱的时候，又是谁在与她同行?
爱情到底给了你多少时间，去相遇和分离，去选择和后悔？
重温 “大话西游” 看到紫霞深爱至尊宝的时候，他心心念念的寻找他的白晶晶，而当他终於看到了她留在心裡的那一滴泪，却已经失去了选择的权利..
每一次看到他潜入另一个人的身体，去偿还前世欠她的一句承诺，再看他在夕阳下孤独的走远，总是情不自禁的想要落泪..
不是不心动，不是不后悔，但已经没有时间，再去相拥了..
如果爱一个人而无法在一起，相爱却无法在适当的时间相遇，
如果你爱了，却爱不对时间，除了珍藏那一滴心底的泪，无言的走远，你又能有什麼选择？
时间的荒野，没有早一步也没有晚一步，
於千万人之中，去邂逅自己的爱人，那是太难得的缘分，
更多的时候，我们只是在彼此不断的错过，错过了杨花飘飞的春，又错过了枫叶瑟索的秋，
直到漫天白雪，年华不再，
在一次次的心酸感嘆之后，才能终於了解..
即使真挚，即使亲密，即使两个人都已是心有戚戚，我们的爱，依然需要时间来成全和考验。
这世界有著太多这样那样的限制与隐秘的禁忌，又有太多难以预测的变故和身不由己的离离合合，一个转身，也许就已经一辈子错过..
多年以后，才会参透所有的争取和努力，都抵不过命运开的一个玩笑。
上帝在云端只眨了一眨眼，所有的结局，就都已经完全改变..
20岁的时候爱上他的帅气，
22岁离开他因为他的孩子气..
然后你遇到了30岁的人，
没有阳光帅气的外表，却拥有成熟和稳重让你安心的一切。
你怎样任性耍赖30岁的他都会让着你，
你怎样挥霍发泄30岁的他都会罩着你。
你眼中的30岁是他长大的模样，30岁眼中的你是他年轻时的她。
30岁的他曾经像22岁的他一样孩子气，然后她离开了..
30岁的他曾经也拥有一个22岁的女孩，事情总是这样循环往复..
十年后当这个22岁男孩蜕变成一个30岁男人，
他要感谢你，你的离开让他学会了成熟。
多少年没见了，我却还是会记得你，多少年过去了，你却依然在我的心裡..
我们为自己设了个圈，自己绕阿绕的，总也出不了这个圈圈..
在大家都不看好的时候 坚强的在一起..
在大家都祝福的时候却 分开了..
就算今年结婚了..
明年也未必再相爱了..
明年你还爱我吗..？♥
such a long post. so emo. to have loved n lost is a pain that will always lurk beneath the surface, even though time will fade it to be more bearable.
Wednesday, July 06, 2011
foreign labour part 3
after kiwi picking and then fish packing, we now have a 3rd casual employment - kiwi packing. the kiwis just drop crazily fast from the conveyor and we have to pack pack pack. some are packed into boxes, which is fine; but there are some that has to be packed into trays individually. i cannot make it la. too slow for the job. and then i cut my finger on the conveyor. now the whole index is swollen with a very deep cut. hurts to even bend it. damn. really accident prone. and there are some songs that are permanently on repeat mode at the packhouse, so they sorta get stuck in our heads now. boo
today we worked 8am to 630pm & tomorrow we have a day off. we shall go see prospective homes so that we can leave Tauranga and be nearer to our packhouse in Te Puke (and away from the ahnehs). I shall bake kiwi and apple muffins too!
it's really cold when it's raining. brrr. but i love my electric blanket. happy! cos we had pork chop & celery + carrots with rice for dinner. i hope i can cook dinner for my bro when i'm back in sg. haha if not he like very poor thing always skip meal/ eat instant stuff/ takeaway.
today we worked 8am to 630pm & tomorrow we have a day off. we shall go see prospective homes so that we can leave Tauranga and be nearer to our packhouse in Te Puke (and away from the ahnehs). I shall bake kiwi and apple muffins too!
it's really cold when it's raining. brrr. but i love my electric blanket. happy! cos we had pork chop & celery + carrots with rice for dinner. i hope i can cook dinner for my bro when i'm back in sg. haha if not he like very poor thing always skip meal/ eat instant stuff/ takeaway.
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
food!!
ting has discovered that searching for recipes and trying them out brings her great satisfaction as well as something to look forward to. hence this shall be her new pastime.
anyway we have nothing much else to think about all day, except food. haha bolstered by our initial success (my banana bread, and her mushroom risotto), we shall find something new to experiment with again! ting even says she wanna start a food blog. lol i doubt la huh.
anyway we have nothing much else to think about all day, except food. haha bolstered by our initial success (my banana bread, and her mushroom risotto), we shall find something new to experiment with again! ting even says she wanna start a food blog. lol i doubt la huh.
Monday, June 27, 2011
yay!!!
we have work as packers in a seafood packhouse! rather surprisingly, the fishy smell isnt so bad, cause they are all freshly caught. don't think we can get any photos posted on FB because our hands are wet and frozen numb!
it's an even simpler job than kiwi picking, and less demanding physically. press a button, load comes in, stuff everything into the box, close it and send it off to the conveyor. repeat.
yj was totally excited the whole day, despite the 5am start. but too bad, we have no work tomorrow, so i hope we can continue being employed.
we have also moved to a new place! no longer a hostel, but a homestay (our first!). the home of an indian-thai couple. we have to pay rent for two weeks, and we have internet! yay! the big plus is that it is so much cheaper, but the room is really cold cold cold!
after baking and rotting last week, it seems that this week is gonna be a better week =)
it's an even simpler job than kiwi picking, and less demanding physically. press a button, load comes in, stuff everything into the box, close it and send it off to the conveyor. repeat.
yj was totally excited the whole day, despite the 5am start. but too bad, we have no work tomorrow, so i hope we can continue being employed.
we have also moved to a new place! no longer a hostel, but a homestay (our first!). the home of an indian-thai couple. we have to pay rent for two weeks, and we have internet! yay! the big plus is that it is so much cheaper, but the room is really cold cold cold!
after baking and rotting last week, it seems that this week is gonna be a better week =)
Thursday, June 23, 2011
fish soup stall
Intersection of Geylang Lorong 25A and Geyland Road, that's all the information I have.
Would love to see photos of the stall and of the dear parents, but my useless brother is of no help. LOL their working hours are worrying me, hope their health is ok!
Would love to see photos of the stall and of the dear parents, but my useless brother is of no help. LOL their working hours are worrying me, hope their health is ok!
coromandel-tauranga
After finally wrapping up the kiwi picking season, we drove to Whitianga for a night’s stay at On the Beach Backpackers Lodge. We had the whole room to ourselves, and almost the whole house (with 2 toilets and a kitchen). We paid a deposit for the shovel, because we wanted to go Hot Water Beach to dig our own pool. Turns out we didn’t have to, the beach was already packed with tourists, and there were ready made pools. The water was too hot for me! Like 60C! Totally scalding! I only soaked my feet and then I couldn’t take it anymore. It was funny when the waves came in, as the cold seawater mixed with the hot water pool and everybody screamed at the sudden chills.
After watching Mr and Mrs Smith on DVD, I went to sleep whereas Ting continued her late night chat with 2m. Woke up the next morning to check out and then it was time to drive to Cathedral Cove to see the beautiful scenery. Had to walk for about 40minutes before we got to the beach area, but it was totally nice! The basic sanitary facilities there were also quite amusing. LOL
The BBH BPP rating can’t always be reliable. Of 4 hostels in Tauranga, we chose the one with the highest rating of 76%, and were shocked. The hostel, besides having a good location in the city centre, was dark, narrow and dirty. Hauling our luggage in the rain, we decided to just take a look first before deciding if we wanted to stay more than one night. That was our best decision. One glance, and we decided we would rather open our luggage in the parking lot and get all the stuff we need for one night. Too dingy and scary for our liking, totally incomprehensible how anyone would rate it so highly. We’re gonna rate it badly if we get the chance.
We were too disgusted with the state of the hostel until YJ didn’t eat, and I had cup noodles. (Ting was out on a date with 2m). We decided to have brunch at a café because it was probably unsafe to eat anything in the kitchen. But the brunch was superb, yummy! So we were in better mood before moving to Just the Ducks Nuts hostel. Don’t ask me why the name is so weird, I have no idea too. This hostel was only 72% rating, but it emphasized on cleanliness so we all prayed it was better. Thank god it was, so we are staying here to see if we get some work. Problem was that this place was so much quieter, compared to Hone Heke, and the owner has some pretty strict rules: after 10.30pm, occupants must return to their respective houses, no alcohols, no noise, and no visitors. There’s also nothing to do for leisure besides read and puzzles. We might just die of boredom, if it weren’t for some pretty nice housemates.
Tomorrow Ting has work at some fish factory, starting at 6am. YJ and I will have to wait till more vacancies open up. =( Everything in Tauranga costs money, what should we do?
Pls send me money, thank you. haha
After watching Mr and Mrs Smith on DVD, I went to sleep whereas Ting continued her late night chat with 2m. Woke up the next morning to check out and then it was time to drive to Cathedral Cove to see the beautiful scenery. Had to walk for about 40minutes before we got to the beach area, but it was totally nice! The basic sanitary facilities there were also quite amusing. LOL
The BBH BPP rating can’t always be reliable. Of 4 hostels in Tauranga, we chose the one with the highest rating of 76%, and were shocked. The hostel, besides having a good location in the city centre, was dark, narrow and dirty. Hauling our luggage in the rain, we decided to just take a look first before deciding if we wanted to stay more than one night. That was our best decision. One glance, and we decided we would rather open our luggage in the parking lot and get all the stuff we need for one night. Too dingy and scary for our liking, totally incomprehensible how anyone would rate it so highly. We’re gonna rate it badly if we get the chance.
We were too disgusted with the state of the hostel until YJ didn’t eat, and I had cup noodles. (Ting was out on a date with 2m). We decided to have brunch at a café because it was probably unsafe to eat anything in the kitchen. But the brunch was superb, yummy! So we were in better mood before moving to Just the Ducks Nuts hostel. Don’t ask me why the name is so weird, I have no idea too. This hostel was only 72% rating, but it emphasized on cleanliness so we all prayed it was better. Thank god it was, so we are staying here to see if we get some work. Problem was that this place was so much quieter, compared to Hone Heke, and the owner has some pretty strict rules: after 10.30pm, occupants must return to their respective houses, no alcohols, no noise, and no visitors. There’s also nothing to do for leisure besides read and puzzles. We might just die of boredom, if it weren’t for some pretty nice housemates.
Tomorrow Ting has work at some fish factory, starting at 6am. YJ and I will have to wait till more vacancies open up. =( Everything in Tauranga costs money, what should we do?
Pls send me money, thank you. haha
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
update
kiwi picking finally ended!
so today we do laundry and bake, and pack.
and then it's off to Auckland for 2 nights, and we drive further south in search of work. Maybe we will go Coromandel to see the hot water beach first though. we don't have any plans!
so today we do laundry and bake, and pack.
and then it's off to Auckland for 2 nights, and we drive further south in search of work. Maybe we will go Coromandel to see the hot water beach first though. we don't have any plans!
Friday, June 10, 2011
first payday!
we got our first paycheck yesterday! yay that we have a bit of money now!
the weather in kerikeri is crazy. today's a rainy day so here we are leaching the WiFi in the library again.
it's really really tiring to pick kiwis. at the end of the day, i have these parts of my body sore/hurting: sole, toes, heel, shin, knees, thighs, hips, shoulders, arms, neck + various scratches and insect bites. all for money. is it any surprise we are glad for rainy days?
and i fell into a rabbit hole yesterday, fuck. which got me a sprained ankle.
there's less and less reasons to go to work everyday. the german guys are gone, the french hottie is gone. and three guys in our lodge are leaving tomorrow, 2 more on thursday. the lodge is gonna be so empty and quiet. upset.
now after the library, we will go to the supermarket to buy ingredients to cook dinner. and then it's off to the pub as a farewell for the guys.
FYI if i'm ever online, its most likely to be btwn 12noon and 4pm NZ time, which is 8am to 12noon SG time. else u have to sms me at +64 2 2094 0557 if u wanna talk.
the weather in kerikeri is crazy. today's a rainy day so here we are leaching the WiFi in the library again.
it's really really tiring to pick kiwis. at the end of the day, i have these parts of my body sore/hurting: sole, toes, heel, shin, knees, thighs, hips, shoulders, arms, neck + various scratches and insect bites. all for money. is it any surprise we are glad for rainy days?
and i fell into a rabbit hole yesterday, fuck. which got me a sprained ankle.
there's less and less reasons to go to work everyday. the german guys are gone, the french hottie is gone. and three guys in our lodge are leaving tomorrow, 2 more on thursday. the lodge is gonna be so empty and quiet. upset.
now after the library, we will go to the supermarket to buy ingredients to cook dinner. and then it's off to the pub as a farewell for the guys.
FYI if i'm ever online, its most likely to be btwn 12noon and 4pm NZ time, which is 8am to 12noon SG time. else u have to sms me at +64 2 2094 0557 if u wanna talk.
Friday, June 03, 2011
week 3
kiwi picking is really tiring. 830 to 530 with only 1 hour break in total - two 15 mins break, and one half hour lunch break. we carry these harvest bags in front of us, and we pick like crazy, just grabbing at anything we can see. motto - leave no fruit behind.
totally knackered at the end of each day, and our shoulders are totally stiff and sore. but we still tried to cook dinner and prepare nice lunches. so far we are doing a lot of grocery shopping - sausages, cereal, milk, cheese, ham, chips, cookies, bread, pasta, lettuce, carrots, potatoes, cabbage etc. we are starting to experiment and cook stuff we've never really tried before at home. e.g. we tried aglio olio pasta, stir frying cabbage, mash potatoes.
good to be employed, but it's also AWESOME to be off on a rainy day like today. Hanging around the Hone Heke Lodge is so fun, because there are so many cute guys to feast our eyes on, and everyone's so friendly. =) it's actually a gem we stumbled upon, since it was the only place in Kerikeri we could get 3 beds.
the simple life is so easy to enjoy. hard work interspersed by friendly bantering with the others on the team, lunch break followed by lying in the sun, rushing back to get a HOT shower, dinner, pool and chatting, then it's time to sleep.
totally knackered at the end of each day, and our shoulders are totally stiff and sore. but we still tried to cook dinner and prepare nice lunches. so far we are doing a lot of grocery shopping - sausages, cereal, milk, cheese, ham, chips, cookies, bread, pasta, lettuce, carrots, potatoes, cabbage etc. we are starting to experiment and cook stuff we've never really tried before at home. e.g. we tried aglio olio pasta, stir frying cabbage, mash potatoes.
good to be employed, but it's also AWESOME to be off on a rainy day like today. Hanging around the Hone Heke Lodge is so fun, because there are so many cute guys to feast our eyes on, and everyone's so friendly. =) it's actually a gem we stumbled upon, since it was the only place in Kerikeri we could get 3 beds.
the simple life is so easy to enjoy. hard work interspersed by friendly bantering with the others on the team, lunch break followed by lying in the sun, rushing back to get a HOT shower, dinner, pool and chatting, then it's time to sleep.
Monday, May 23, 2011
Start of week 3
We spent 7 days in Auckland, got a car at $1500, bought all the adult things like insurance and licence registration. Walked crazy loads up lots of hills. Met some nice people e.g. Julian, Esther, Emma. Saw some nice sunset, enjoyed the cooling air, cheap gelato, cheap beer.
Then we went to Whangarei, Paihia, Cape Reinga, Ninety Mile Beach and Omapere. Super crazy beautiful beaches, seas and just loads of fresh air, sun and wind. Totally don't ever wanna go back. Who wants to live in a city when there's such a nice country??
We start work tomorrow for some persimmon picking. Right now we've spent a bomb on accomodations, and due to the high volume fruit picking season now in Kerikeri, there aren't a lot of beds around. We are now at Hone Heke Lodge, with TY in a dorm of 8 girls, whereas YJ and I are in a queen suite, which is more ex. The kitchen is damn small, and there are super alot of people. So we have to aim timing and chiong to cook & bathe. But everyone's really friendly. Germans, French, Malaysians, Taiwanese. Some cute guys around hahaha
It's actually a nice way of life, being disconnected from the Internet. There are like less than 3 smses/ phone calls on my NZ number. =)
for photos, pls check facebook!
Then we went to Whangarei, Paihia, Cape Reinga, Ninety Mile Beach and Omapere. Super crazy beautiful beaches, seas and just loads of fresh air, sun and wind. Totally don't ever wanna go back. Who wants to live in a city when there's such a nice country??
We start work tomorrow for some persimmon picking. Right now we've spent a bomb on accomodations, and due to the high volume fruit picking season now in Kerikeri, there aren't a lot of beds around. We are now at Hone Heke Lodge, with TY in a dorm of 8 girls, whereas YJ and I are in a queen suite, which is more ex. The kitchen is damn small, and there are super alot of people. So we have to aim timing and chiong to cook & bathe. But everyone's really friendly. Germans, French, Malaysians, Taiwanese. Some cute guys around hahaha
It's actually a nice way of life, being disconnected from the Internet. There are like less than 3 smses/ phone calls on my NZ number. =)
for photos, pls check facebook!
Sunday, May 08, 2011
first day!
passport kena randomly picked for extra long examination by customs personnel, such that when I finally cleared customs, all our luggages were already sitting on the floor next to the carousel. my luggage is like 25+4 kg!!! wtf
took the airport express to the hostel, only to realise we have to walk down a 60 degree slope. Please lo, the luggage I had to use the back of my knees to support. Can die from bruises! Wrist almost broke too! I'm so gonna get a 4-wheel luggage after this!
brought nokia handphone but left charger at home. brought camera + charger, and camera lens spoilt 10mins after arrival in hostel. epic win. this is gonna be one helluva ride.
room's pretty small, but it's clean and cosy. one cutie hunk spotted so far. kiwis are all rather friendly and helpful. weather's cold, but oh so wonderful!
may not update due to lack of free wifi. sms at the 0493 no. or else sms my old no, and maybe my bro will tell u my contact info.
took the airport express to the hostel, only to realise we have to walk down a 60 degree slope. Please lo, the luggage I had to use the back of my knees to support. Can die from bruises! Wrist almost broke too! I'm so gonna get a 4-wheel luggage after this!
brought nokia handphone but left charger at home. brought camera + charger, and camera lens spoilt 10mins after arrival in hostel. epic win. this is gonna be one helluva ride.
room's pretty small, but it's clean and cosy. one cutie hunk spotted so far. kiwis are all rather friendly and helpful. weather's cold, but oh so wonderful!
may not update due to lack of free wifi. sms at the 0493 no. or else sms my old no, and maybe my bro will tell u my contact info.
Saturday, May 07, 2011
movies
A Chinese Ghost Story: they thought their love could be a happily-ever-after. But they were dumb, there’s no such possibility. Even if one of them cannot forget the other, their love would still be destructive. never watched such a boring show that i yawned throughout.
Thor: to rule, the successor must learn how to empathise, even the enemy. Only then is he able to wield the power in his hands. sounds like we should vote wisely.
polling after lunch, a last check through, and then off to the airport!
we'll have fun! u guys take care too!
Thor: to rule, the successor must learn how to empathise, even the enemy. Only then is he able to wield the power in his hands. sounds like we should vote wisely.
polling after lunch, a last check through, and then off to the airport!
we'll have fun! u guys take care too!
Saturday, April 30, 2011
Friday, April 29, 2011
countdown to 7th May
the general elections this year are really exciting. there's a flood of news on facebook, the newspaper, online. 82 of 87 seats are contested, such a strong show of the opposition! first time voting, so i'm actually quite interested to attend at least one rally. well, hope i get the chance to!
time to start packing. like really really really pack. hahaha and i finally got my licence, though ql n i think it doesnt look like me. weird.
i have to figure out skype account set-up!
time to start packing. like really really really pack. hahaha and i finally got my licence, though ql n i think it doesnt look like me. weird.
i have to figure out skype account set-up!
it is possible
to hate a name, simply because of one person.
to jump at the sight of a certain make of car in a certain color, because of memories.
to still wanna punch a person in the face, no matter how much time has passed.
i don't hope you're happy. please be miserable as hell. FOREVER.
you wished the end could have been on better terms. but you should know, it doesnt matter. what matters is that it was THE END.
to jump at the sight of a certain make of car in a certain color, because of memories.
to still wanna punch a person in the face, no matter how much time has passed.
i don't hope you're happy. please be miserable as hell. FOREVER.
you wished the end could have been on better terms. but you should know, it doesnt matter. what matters is that it was THE END.
Saturday, April 23, 2011
hanging out
i like hanging out with friends, its just fun.
mahjong with linteng, tingyan, yinjie, with zhiyong video-conferencing via msn live messenger. that was super hilarious.
dating linteng and hanjing for one afternoon each - we could talk so much, lame so much, and share bits about our lives that we normally don't get to share. i like that closeness, cause we all know its just concern as longtime friends, and we've evolved so much from those little kids who shy away from having friends of the opposite sex.
hj and i agree on one point that cause we're so weary people with prior experience, it's so bloody sian to go through the whole cycle of relationships. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tSdELZxEnHY but then again, to meet someone who eeyer at holding hands, omg at kissing, also damn sian. LOL
burden-less, warm, happy. =) nothing complicated, my life now, just the way it should be.
mahjong with linteng, tingyan, yinjie, with zhiyong video-conferencing via msn live messenger. that was super hilarious.
dating linteng and hanjing for one afternoon each - we could talk so much, lame so much, and share bits about our lives that we normally don't get to share. i like that closeness, cause we all know its just concern as longtime friends, and we've evolved so much from those little kids who shy away from having friends of the opposite sex.
hj and i agree on one point that cause we're so weary people with prior experience, it's so bloody sian to go through the whole cycle of relationships. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tSdELZxEnHY but then again, to meet someone who eeyer at holding hands, omg at kissing, also damn sian. LOL
burden-less, warm, happy. =) nothing complicated, my life now, just the way it should be.
Monday, April 18, 2011
termination & replacement
i think sg banks buay pai. hahaha now i must go find my phone banking pin for all 3 banks. omg.
IC $60 instead of $100(small gratitude) one month's time: someone need to collect for me
driver licence $25 collection on 28th
credit cards: UOB, DBS, OCBC already in the mail
atm cards: POSB, UOB settled with different PINs
sim card to be couriered. meanwhile i got a spare no.
passwords: facebook, gmail, hotmail all changed
handphone how?? to get or not to get?
house lock. damn it, must change
i am cursing the guy every single moment in my subconscious mind. "bad NO sex for 7 years!" may lady lose follow u all the way!
handphone how?? to get or not to get?
house lock. damn it, must change
i am cursing the guy every single moment in my subconscious mind. "
Sunday, April 17, 2011
happy times!
当了兵，不代表已经从男孩蜕变成男人。
男人必须是有责任感的，无论任何时刻都会do the right thing.
稳重，照顾身边的人。累，醉，都还能让人依赖。
温暖，知道对方需要的是什么。
大方， 明白小器忸怩只是20岁时做的事。
对事情有见解，也临危不乱，够淡定。
女孩子也不一定会变成女人。
温柔，懂的体恤别人，展现关怀。
独立，必要时靠自己的力量完成事情。
明白事理，因为无理取闹也很幼稚。
聪明，为自己作出正确的决定。
都只是我的意见，觉得我们一路看到彼此的变化， 挺开心的。这样的朋友，我很珍惜。
butter factory
it was fun the first 2 hours, drinking and dancing...
then the ones we thought wouldn't get drunk got drunk.
and then some bloody fucker stole my bag. with all my things inside.
i curse u to the lowest level of hell, and i hope u get caught so that i can skewer u and eat your balls to appease my anger.
bloody fuck fuck fuck. knnwtf. seriously pissed at the carelessness. one phrase will show how pissed i am. ccb, rot and die u fucker.
then the ones we thought wouldn't get drunk got drunk.
and then some bloody fucker stole my bag. with all my things inside.
i curse u to the lowest level of hell, and i hope u get caught so that i can skewer u and eat your balls to appease my anger.
bloody fuck fuck fuck. knnwtf. seriously pissed at the carelessness. one phrase will show how pissed i am. ccb, rot and die u fucker.
Friday, April 15, 2011
went to sleep with an uncomfortable feeling in my heart. second time proves the anticipation is really worth more than the actual event. the silence was not awkward, and when i look into his eyes and face, i understand why i once loved him so. but it was not a heart racing feeling, there was no desire that overtook me and made me want to grab his hand and hug him.
and i wonder if i will ever find back that kind of feeling. 那心跳加速，想要轰轰烈烈爱一次的冲动。
and i wonder if i will ever find back that kind of feeling. 那心跳加速，想要轰轰烈烈爱一次的冲动。
Monday, April 11, 2011
busy week
mon + thurs: power plate lesson - hope we don't die.
tues: pator day with lala! we're gonna get a GPS, plus it's Ben & Jerry free cone day!
wed: dinner with gen
fri: 85
sat: butter factory!
sun,mon,tues: chalet (show face only, it's mum's)
looking forward to 7th May!
you gotta be kidding me right? the sheer atrocity. thought your career path was to just follow her wherever she goes?
tues: pator day with lala! we're gonna get a GPS, plus it's Ben & Jerry free cone day!
wed: dinner with gen
fri: 85
sat: butter factory!
sun,mon,tues: chalet (show face only, it's mum's)
looking forward to 7th May!
you gotta be kidding me right? the sheer atrocity. thought your career path was to just follow her wherever she goes?
Sunday, April 10, 2011
saturday!
played mahjong with pork leen lala. hahaha, rushed affair, with only winnings of $6. but it was fun Bom-ing.
horrible downpour, so cabbed down to granny's place for the extended family mad champagne popping session. reason: mum and dad have finally quitted their jobs!
seriously funny la. LOL and they wanna go out in full force to send me off on 7th May. they are so lame can!
nevermind, my celebration shall take place on 16 april, butter factory. wahahaha so damn looking forward to the first clubbing with the girls.
horrible downpour, so cabbed down to granny's place for the extended family mad champagne popping session. reason: mum and dad have finally quitted their jobs!
nevermind, my celebration shall take place on 16 april, butter factory. wahahaha so damn looking forward to the first clubbing with the girls.
Friday, April 08, 2011
insomnia lehz...
there are some things i wish i could forgive and forget. but my memory wouldn't let me. even either or of those two would be fine. but no such luck. dang.
looking forward to a hectic mad packed month ahead. need to do more ktv, mj and dinners before we 3 fly. haha
7th may 7.45pm.
looking forward to a hectic mad packed month ahead. need to do more ktv, mj and dinners before we 3 fly. haha
7th may 7.45pm.
Tuesday, April 05, 2011
peeved
so it has come to this, huh?
aiya it's up to me right? ok lor, i expect with this answer, you've already decided not to contact me anymore. i could live with that.
better to have no more contact than to suddenly have such childish games sprung on me again. seriously, is there any rule as to how often contact must be made? you're making it sound like it's my fault. not as if you dunno we're just friends, and we agreed to keep the situation open, no strings attached. was i supposed to report? i dun remember it being in the terms n conditions!
anyway, i happen to think my answer was logical, maybe a bit too unfeeling i admit, but no need for a brouhaha.
damn it. fine, i can read a hint. i can cut contact with you.
aiya it's up to me right? ok lor, i expect with this answer, you've already decided not to contact me anymore. i could live with that.
better to have no more contact than to suddenly have such childish games sprung on me again. seriously, is there any rule as to how often contact must be made? you're making it sound like it's my fault. not as if you dunno we're just friends, and we agreed to keep the situation open, no strings attached. was i supposed to report? i dun remember it being in the terms n conditions!
anyway, i happen to think my answer was logical, maybe a bit too unfeeling i admit, but no need for a brouhaha.
damn it. fine, i can read a hint. i can cut contact with you.
清明节
第一次扫墓，竟然还有宾士作为祭品。
阿麽说：老了，以后我死了，没有土葬， 只有放在庙里一个灵位。应该就没有人会在清明节这样拜我。听了很难过。
面对战争，小心眼的婆婆，爱喝酒的丈夫，独自带大九个子女，经历过家庭反目，过了九旬辛苦人生的阿麽仍然坚强。唯一希望是她健康平安，不再难过生气无助。
担心回来时，她已不在， 所以叫她好好照顾自己， 要等我。她说，这种事没得掌控。害我眼泪在眼眶打转。
阿麽说：老了，以后我死了，没有土葬， 只有放在庙里一个灵位。应该就没有人会在清明节这样拜我。听了很难过。
面对战争，小心眼的婆婆，爱喝酒的丈夫，独自带大九个子女，经历过家庭反目，过了九旬辛苦人生的阿麽仍然坚强。唯一希望是她健康平安，不再难过生气无助。
担心回来时，她已不在， 所以叫她好好照顾自己， 要等我。她说，这种事没得掌控。害我眼泪在眼眶打转。
Sunday, April 03, 2011
slacking mode
dinner with colleagues on thurs night at yishun. lotsa food in a rather short dinner. i am gonna miss the people, now that there are no politics and guessing involved. 
fri xlb buffet at 5pm. early bird winner goes to 那个姓赖的. with work ending officially at 6pm, he was there reading newspaper at 430pm. hahaha total turnout 9 people. total xlb > 30z5. hahaha last order: 十二笼小龙包. the waitress incredulously asked us, are you sure you can finish, else we have to charge for wastage. YES!!! and we did. hahaha =D refugee ride again in the back of the van to hj's hse, where we divided up to play mj, sing ktv, and play wii. hahaha his house is really a one-stop shop.
other random things i did: driving my dad's huge orange van at a slow slow pace. from punggol to bedok,to visit ahma. and then borrowing some books from the library (yj: i am also cultured! lol) dinner with my parents with a fat tabby cat snoozing all the while under the table
the afternoon is too hot for me to do anything, even though i have to transfer some funds, do some computer stuff clearing up, and then pack my room and table. haha
fri xlb buffet at 5pm. early bird winner goes to 那个姓赖的. with work ending officially at 6pm, he was there reading newspaper at 430pm. hahaha total turnout 9 people. total xlb > 30z5. hahaha last order: 十二笼小龙包. the waitress incredulously asked us, are you sure you can finish, else we have to charge for wastage. YES!!! and we did. hahaha =D refugee ride again in the back of the van to hj's hse, where we divided up to play mj, sing ktv, and play wii. hahaha his house is really a one-stop shop.
other random things i did: driving my dad's huge orange van at a slow slow pace. from punggol to bedok,to visit ahma. and then borrowing some books from the library (yj: i am also cultured! lol) dinner with my parents with a fat tabby cat snoozing all the while under the table
the afternoon is too hot for me to do anything, even though i have to transfer some funds, do some computer stuff clearing up, and then pack my room and table. haha
Thursday, March 31, 2011
day of achievement
amazing really, that
1) i stuck it out for 1.5 years
2) i actually managed to quit successfully, despite the latest attempt to psycho me in the morning
3) my sup thanked me for my work and help
4) 2 people cried on saying goodbye (and one was still crying after an hour OMG)
人生难免有悲欢离合。我相信认识是一种缘分。虽然认识的时间很短暂，但毕竟我们有机会一起共事。在工作上能有这样的帮忙教导，我是心存感激的。这份工让我成长不少，学习很多，也磨练了自己。
原来只需要两种心，一切都会有办法解决。
真心，自然会有贵人出现帮忙。
平常心，自己做到，就自然会有人看到，不要把权利看的太重。自己对得起良心就好。
睡觉睡到自然醒，数钱数到手抽筋- tomorrow i'm gonna accomplish one of life's 2 major haolian things. hahahaha
1) i stuck it out for 1.5 years
2) i actually managed to quit successfully, despite the latest attempt to psycho me in the morning
3) my sup thanked me for my work and help
4) 2 people cried on saying goodbye (and one was still crying after an hour OMG)
人生难免有悲欢离合。我相信认识是一种缘分。虽然认识的时间很短暂，但毕竟我们有机会一起共事。在工作上能有这样的帮忙教导，我是心存感激的。这份工让我成长不少，学习很多，也磨练了自己。
原来只需要两种心，一切都会有办法解决。
真心，自然会有贵人出现帮忙。
平常心，自己做到，就自然会有人看到，不要把权利看的太重。自己对得起良心就好。
睡觉睡到自然醒，数钱数到手抽筋- tomorrow i'm gonna accomplish one of life's 2 major haolian things. hahahaha
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
2 more days~!
after work, went to play badminton yesterday at NYP. so random i know. so unbelievable that i'm playing after such a long period of inactivity. but it was fun and feels good to move my stiff joints.
and i went in a nice ride!
in a side note: the ridiculousness of our 'dire straits' was such that it made me laugh
come on people, cheer up! it's mid week!
gonna do spa later! yay for half day leave!
and i went in a nice ride!
in a side note: the ridiculousness of our 'dire straits' was such that it made me laugh
come on people, cheer up! it's mid week!
Sunday, March 27, 2011
4 more days!
friday night was buffet dinner at the line, courtesy of production manager. it was quite a nice place, it being the shangri-la after all. but the food was less than my expectations, and not as spectacular or wow-good as i imagined. nice talking to them the whole night though, i guess people are monsters at work cause they have to be. haha
it's enjoyable to just share bits of life. likewise, same goes for the teadot session with evan today. =)
random event not planned for the weekend was the impromptu mj session last night. after waking from his slumber did mr luai start to call army buy horse. 7pm at tanah merah, and yet 730pm we were still circling joo chiat for a place to park. eventually we gave up to go geylang eat taohuay + mee sua + you tiao, and pick up yong. tried to sing ktv and play mj at same time, but epic fail. so we only heard music the whole night. hj fought zy at marvel comic heroes and won both rounds. girls won at mj, but still i did not win enough for cab.
4 more working days!!!! yay ~*!
Friday, March 25, 2011
lies
some people disappoint me with their lies. is it even necessary? if you have changed your mind, have the guts to own up.
it's just a matter of whether i wanna expose your bullshit.
it's just a matter of whether i wanna expose your bullshit.
Monday, March 21, 2011
hai
and it was just my luck i saw this now, when my brother has already painted over the words on my bed, and i've thrown/returned almost everything.
your handwriting threw me off guard, this night that i'm home alone.
没想到，都过了一年半了，还是忘不了。 一个人的难过，几时才会停止，我很想知道。至少我能相信人家口中那句 "everything's gonna be alright"
your handwriting threw me off guard, this night that i'm home alone.
没想到，都过了一年半了，还是忘不了。 一个人的难过，几时才会停止，我很想知道。至少我能相信人家口中那句 "everything's gonna be alright"
last working Sat!
according to hj: who the hell works on Sat? got such a thing on meh?????? no more for me~~~~~!!
was supposed to go develop photos for D&D etc alone after work, but during our chat online, lt said he was gonna be bored so let's lunch together. ok, so we decided on victor's kitchen at sunshine plaza.
and then hj Whatsapped me to jio me for lunch, so we became a threesome. good thing he drove cause otherwise we'll all be drenched. food at victor's was not bad, we liked the yam cake and custard bun! total bill $45, kinda ex for 12 dishes.
quite full already, but hj wanted beancurd so we walked to rochor and also bought egg tarts.not very spectacular lehz
then it was time for mr luai to go home, and we walked to peace centre where we realised lt is a big liar! there wasn't any photo developing centres! so we bought one measly cup of coffee and headed back to Li Ka Shing library group study room. another pretend SMUgger was there waiting for us to return so he could pee. haha
in the end we spent about 3 hours doing nothing but talking crap. it felt really really nice. then it so happened to have my aunt tending shop in SOA so we got a free ride to bedok 511 for bbq stingray dinner!
i like saturday cos it was so random! =)
sunday was ktv day! ty n leen bought gongcha oolong milk tea for me, and being the first experience, i think it's more fragrant than koi! ehub kbox 2pm-5pm at only $6 nett per pax! leen spammed hebe's songs while we froze half to death. haha
HTHT with leen for about an hour before heading out to meet family at a bistro near riviera lrt. the food was just average, the vibe was relaxed, and i was considering going back again if there's the chance. but within half hour of leaving the place, i got a call from my credit card centre. ms lim, the manager called to say he returned you the wrong card. wtf. i definitely don't think it's my fault. so i'm never going back on principle. turned a fine night shitty. pui!
i'm not wrong for not wanting to stay on. this is a shit-hole, and i can't wait for the 8 more days to freedom! don't throw a tantrum like a baby just cause things don't go your way. you think i'd be like her, capitulating to your persuasion? sorry, i despise dragging stuff on for long periods of time, i am capable of setting when i want things to end. don't boliao and make things such that in future we can't even be friends.
apr 1 pls come quickly!
was supposed to go develop photos for D&D etc alone after work, but during our chat online, lt said he was gonna be bored so let's lunch together. ok, so we decided on victor's kitchen at sunshine plaza.
and then hj Whatsapped me to jio me for lunch, so we became a threesome. good thing he drove cause otherwise we'll all be drenched. food at victor's was not bad, we liked the yam cake and custard bun! total bill $45, kinda ex for 12 dishes.
quite full already, but hj wanted beancurd so we walked to rochor and also bought egg tarts.not very spectacular lehz
then it was time for mr luai to go home, and we walked to peace centre where we realised lt is a big liar! there wasn't any photo developing centres! so we bought one measly cup of coffee and headed back to Li Ka Shing library group study room. another pretend SMUgger was there waiting for us to return so he could pee. haha
in the end we spent about 3 hours doing nothing but talking crap. it felt really really nice. then it so happened to have my aunt tending shop in SOA so we got a free ride to bedok 511 for bbq stingray dinner!
i like saturday cos it was so random! =)
sunday was ktv day! ty n leen bought gongcha oolong milk tea for me, and being the first experience, i think it's more fragrant than koi! ehub kbox 2pm-5pm at only $6 nett per pax! leen spammed hebe's songs while we froze half to death. haha
HTHT with leen for about an hour before heading out to meet family at a bistro near riviera lrt. the food was just average, the vibe was relaxed, and i was considering going back again if there's the chance. but within half hour of leaving the place, i got a call from my credit card centre. ms lim, the manager called to say he returned you the wrong card. wtf. i definitely don't think it's my fault. so i'm never going back on principle. turned a fine night shitty. pui!
i'm not wrong for not wanting to stay on. this is a shit-hole, and i can't wait for the 8 more days to freedom! don't throw a tantrum like a baby just cause things don't go your way. you think i'd be like her, capitulating to your persuasion? sorry, i despise dragging stuff on for long periods of time, i am capable of setting when i want things to end. don't boliao and make things such that in future we can't even be friends.
apr 1 pls come quickly!
Saturday, March 19, 2011
the smell of the weekend is wonderful
this is my last working Saturday. allow me to say YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!
a lot of stuff left to clear, dunno if i can finish at all.
gonna do random boliao stuff later, with lt and my bro. but i know its gonna be enjoyable =)dimsum + talking crap. i hope their studying won't be too much affected. hahaha
childish obstinacy will not be tolerated a second time, HOR! -_-
a lot of stuff left to clear, dunno if i can finish at all.
gonna do random boliao stuff later, with lt and my bro. but i know its gonna be enjoyable =)dimsum + talking crap. i hope their studying won't be too much affected. hahaha
childish obstinacy will not be tolerated a second time, HOR! -_-
Friday, March 18, 2011
Thursday, March 17, 2011
stunned
i'm actually pleasantly surprised prod mgr proposed to treat me to buffet dinner, without other people except his wife. wa, he got so teng me a not??? shall go the line @ shangri-la since lala recommends it!
i'm also stunned at the drama-ness. admit i'm at fault, yet it still feels like over-reaction to me. i don't wanna lose a friend, even though my friendship may not mean the same thing as yours. trying to wait for your anger to cool down before we talk, but i understand your temper. i will accept it if you no longer want to stay in touch. i will not disturb your peace in the meantime.
i'm also stunned at the drama-ness. admit i'm at fault, yet it still feels like over-reaction to me. i don't wanna lose a friend, even though my friendship may not mean the same thing as yours. trying to wait for your anger to cool down before we talk, but i understand your temper. i will accept it if you no longer want to stay in touch. i will not disturb your peace in the meantime.
Monday, March 14, 2011
a fun night to remember
yesterday was my company's D&D. a hassle to prepare, but it was worth it. even in my first year of preparation last year, it wasn't so hectic.
the event company that i engaged this year did a pretty good job. there were pre-dinner events of caricature sketching and tattoo drawing. i did one of each, as did many of the operators there. why not? it was free!
emerald suite at orchid country club. theme: around the world! may all passengers please board at gate M01 - M12. chairman giving speech as captain of the evening flight. a toasting ceremony that made known the company's management to all the staff.
main highlights of the night: (1)icebreaker game of bingo - last one standing (2)human jackpot with the total cash prize of $687, (3) nina the drag queen who took a fancy to my operations director, (4) lucky draw with TV, DSLR, laptop and 2 iPads in the top 5 prizes. of cos i didn't win anything, i have no such luck!
a little bit of wine got my chairman high, so he went round to all the tables to toast the staff for hard work of the past year. i kinda liked this part cause of the 'feeling' of camaraderie, even though the truth is the chairman doesn't even know the names of any staff. and well, at least it made the operators happy =)
organising committee receiving a token of appreciation from the very suave operations director.
photos with my QA inspectors, store manager as well as technicians. to give the guys face, i half-squatted, but some joker took a shot of the feet too. (ala roy) haha
with my fellow receptionists, who did a good job!
from top left, in anti-clockwise direction: operations director, lao ban niang, supervisor (QA manager) and sales manager
one scandalous photo of my tattoo, with my production manager. the number of bangles i wore caused me to bruise after excessive clapping. i think i got a bit too high acting on stage and during the mass dance.
with my china colleagues who showered us with great hospitality when we were in wuxi. we had to reciprocate the favour, we booked a partyworld ktv room at yishun safra. sang form 12mn to 3am, with 2 towers of beer. and somehow the very pro china chairman couldn't even walk. no choice but to languish till 4am, hoping he will wake from his stupor. which he didn't, so we gave up and i went home to shower and collapse into bed at 5am.
the torture continued today, kena dragged out of house to go bowling. 4 games and we only won one, after they pang chance give us 40 points lead. but the session was hilarious. haha
only side effect: won't be working tomorrow. bah, no mc la. waste money waste time in the procuring process! so i shall just continue to self-declare 4 day weeks! and it seems i have also stupidly misplaced my usb cable somewhere. have to borrow bro's charger for now!
the event company that i engaged this year did a pretty good job. there were pre-dinner events of caricature sketching and tattoo drawing. i did one of each, as did many of the operators there. why not? it was free!
the torture continued today, kena dragged out of house to go bowling. 4 games and we only won one, after they pang chance give us 40 points lead. but the session was hilarious. haha
only side effect: won't be working tomorrow. bah, no mc la. waste money waste time in the procuring process! so i shall just continue to self-declare 4 day weeks! and it seems i have also stupidly misplaced my usb cable somewhere. have to borrow bro's charger for now!
Thursday, March 10, 2011
withdrawal
stupidly left my handphone in office.
but afternoon was slack due to shopping at J8.
tempted to buy haagen dazs fondue set, at $45, included of the fondue bowl, burner and forks too!
it's fun to ignore all QA stuff and just wrap presents. hahaha
Around the world we go!
but afternoon was slack due to shopping at J8.
tempted to buy haagen dazs fondue set, at $45, included of the fondue bowl, burner and forks too!
it's fun to ignore all QA stuff and just wrap presents. hahaha
Around the world we go!
Tuesday, March 08, 2011
when April comes
everyone's asking me why don't i extend till April to earn one more month's spending? and then the next question they ask is what am i going to do in April when i'm not working?
oh that's an easy question. rot, watch shows, backup stuff, buy stuff. anyway why do i have to report to you? hahaha
don't ask me what am i going to work as when i come back to SG. i don't know.
aiya, come back then think la. ask so many questions for what when i don't even know what the future looks like.
oh that's an easy question. rot, watch shows, backup stuff, buy stuff. anyway why do i have to report to you? hahaha
don't ask me what am i going to work as when i come back to SG. i don't know.
aiya, come back then think la. ask so many questions for what when i don't even know what the future looks like.
Sunday, March 06, 2011
what i've been up to
after the migraine on thursday, i slept almost 16hours till 10am on fri. determined not to return until the aircon is fixed, which it already is. haha but that was in the afternoon, so my urgent leave of absence is justifiable.
sneaked out for lunch with pseudo bf lala at tamp one thai express. and i am quite happy they did not realised my fraud for using an expired voucher. hahaha walked around with the strong temptation but money was too big a concern to ignore. so i returned home at 3pm to rest awhile, before heading out to Clarke quay to meet gen.
had Harry's for dinner, nothing spectacular there. gen was against beer so we walked around some before deciding to eat icecream haha. and then we headed to indochine for a drink. blea, fattening. but we had a good time talking about a lot of stuff. yes i promise we will try to meet more before i fly! =p
went home at 12midnight via cab, that's 2 times in a week! gosh, didn't i say i was broke! hmm but it was necessary, cause i had to wake at 6am on Sat! i have to reach woodlands mrt by 7am!
Woodlands Customs again! my cute Minnie passport holder =p
LBN planned a tour for a group of 11 people to her hometown Sungei Rengit 泗湾岛 near Desaru for a relaxing day.
Fruit farm! didn't go in to tour the place, but we bought mangoes and guavas! we also went to buy freshly baked 马蹄酥酥
Ostrich Farm! the ostrich farm is so fascinating. the egg is damn big, just slightly smaller than my foot! weighs 1.5kg, which translates into an omelette big enough for 20 people! you could even stand on it! if you break it, it's gonna cost RM60!
Other animals at the farm include a gibbon (?- monkey la!) And for the ostriches, you can tell gender by their beaks!Red beak= male, black beak = female. and the guide says there are tomboys/ ah gua ostriches! cause their penises must be >11 inch to be really manly enough for mating. hahaha
cause i'm the youngest there, so i was sabotaged to do all the tourist poses. haha
this was only our dinner! i didn't manage to take photos of the lunch, where LBN spammed seafood, 2 types of lobster, 2 types of crab, 1 fish! siao lor
LBN bought this for me while we were shopping at the newly opened KSL city! so i spent half the afternoon taking down the framed puzzle, cleaning the wall, imagining the placement and then pasting the wall sticker! Tadah! so nice hor? though a bit childish, but it cheers me up to look at it!=)
it's too soon to Monday! but D&D's next Sat. The theme: Around the World!!! due to budget constraints, i shall go as a gypsy. hahahhaha
sneaked out for lunch with pseudo bf lala at tamp one thai express. and i am quite happy they did not realised my fraud for using an expired voucher. hahaha walked around with the strong temptation but money was too big a concern to ignore. so i returned home at 3pm to rest awhile, before heading out to Clarke quay to meet gen.
went home at 12midnight via cab, that's 2 times in a week! gosh, didn't i say i was broke! hmm but it was necessary, cause i had to wake at 6am on Sat! i have to reach woodlands mrt by 7am!
LBN planned a tour for a group of 11 people to her hometown Sungei Rengit 泗湾岛 near Desaru for a relaxing day.
it's too soon to Monday! but D&D's next Sat. The theme: Around the World!!! due to budget constraints, i shall go as a gypsy. hahahhaha
Thursday, March 03, 2011
broke my own record
520pm: knock off
525pm: board cab
615pm: bathed and on bed.
12mn: awake
all because of a migraine. stupid office aircon broke down and caused bad air circulation. omg, i am becoming fragile like my mom.
525pm: board cab
615pm: bathed and on bed.
12mn: awake
all because of a migraine. stupid office aircon broke down and caused bad air circulation. omg, i am becoming fragile like my mom.
Monday, February 28, 2011
cos it's too early to sleep at 8pm
doing this as explained by the title. haha
kiseki dinner
ubin cycling
nice cards from the penpals who somehow wrote back simultaneously haha
with this letter, i am putting an end to having to endure woodlands' many floods! yay!! nothing can make me change my mind now!
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